Well I needs to say that now I m sure there is something wrong with my brains because I just love coding and editing.. Even how annoying it can get I still kinda enjoy it.
I have been learning HTML5 and CSS3 lately and I find it kinda fun also.
The only bad side of my life is that I still need medicines for my depression. And when I tried to take less-effective amount of pills I found that I somehow felt like wanting to cry many feelings that I had "hidden inside me"..
I find it a good thing but then it came to my mind that what if I have got too addicted to them so I m depended of them and it feels bit scary.
Well I did not have any scary nightmares or anything like that.. or so far because I don't remember having one unless you count my last night dream as one where I was late for work time training-job place of mine and was about to drown because of huge amount of water in City alleys and inside a mall I was walking by there.
But I returned to my old amout of them and I think okay now.
But yes I really feel I should write here more often because I feel it helps me to keep my head clear from all things that are in my mind.
Sometimes it just feels like I think I m not even awake even I m. But I suppose everything is a lot better than it was over a year ago because I m able to walk among people and I m able to study with out panic attacks 24/7.
