I was surprised that they actually signed me up for some kind of training program again for getting a job. I m happy about it. I was sure they would just have passed me down to the next person.
One thing I've noticed because of the heat is that I notice that my adhd gets worse. Like its almost impossible for me to focus on anything. I keep hyper focusing on something for one second and then I keep being distracted and forgetting what I was even doing in a first place. I tried to watch some youtube vids but I notice myself not even being being able to focus watching a Youtube video. I'm usually able at least to do that.
I think it has something to do with the all the water dissapearing from my body with the heat and my adhd medicines also dissapear from my body more quickly.
Like I was at my typ meeting today and I noticed being both hyper focusing there but somehow I felt like I was not able to remember almost anything about it from afterwards. And now I feel like I cant focus on anything. I feel like I was drunk even I have only drinken lemonade and water. And I feel dizzy and confused.
Its kinda scary, but then again I feel that I'm way too sleepy to even freak out or panic about it.
Not able to focus hurt me most was when my friend called me on phone and asked if I wanted to hang out with her today. I was unable to tell her anything but "I don't know.." Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I did not eat anything else besides breakfast at 9am till the evening 'till 14:00pm when I ate few burritos.
Usually the dazzed feeling passes away when I eat. But now I still I feel really confused and sleepy.
I did take my d-vitamin pills at morning and I was in sun during the day so at least it should not be because the lack of the vitamin d.. Or how should I know anything?
I feel so confused right now.
Maybe I should just take a nap or turn it to for the night.
But I somehow don't feel tired in a way. I feel dazzed and confused, but not sleepy. I still blame the combo of all water being being drained from my body and my adhd meds getting drained out with it too.
I haven't heard any GNG rumors lately and I feel bit exited for new rumours, but at this moment I feel like I'm not gonna hear any rumours till end of the June.
I'm still hyped for the Lion King... Even now I'm already 100 sure that I cant enjoy it so much as the original. And it makes me kinda dissapointed.
Also on the view of what I wanna do with my life, I still have zero idea what I wanna do. And at the moment I feel like its impossible to me to even think anything or focus on anything. But ya. I think I think I will stop writing now and try to get some sleep.
But then again I feel like I might wanna watch some cartoons before going. But then again I feel like if I dont go now I will have to work super hard to be able to relax and become sleepy again.
