Hi. Long time no see. I have been too busy to play Minecraft and hang out with friends to post here.
Also Ive been struggling with something.
Lets just say that because I literally got panic attacks and got burnout because one person who had some kind of diabilities and I tried to fix him and help him to learn people skills. He was not so keen to learn and it ended up in a fight because he or me could not understand each others at all.
Well now Ive met someone else with similiar disabilities and even that person does not mean to be mean or cruel I still feel like Im damn allergic to their actions. Like to me that person seems really rude and selfish and trying to be with that person is really hard. Even I m only with him one online chat.
But I can see he he struggles to read humans or understand hows to not behave like total asshole.. And I know that it would take someone to teach him how to behave not to be a total unskilled annoying kid.. Even he is an adult. But like after all I have been done I m not keen on trying to teach anyone again. Specially when this person is not even willing to accept that they dont have human skills at all.
At the moment I feel like I just wanna yell at them and call go full Rocket Raccoon mode on them to keep them away from me. I already snapped at him once yesterday that caused my other friends telling me they did not enjoy the chat at all if I snap on people like that.
But I'm just so annoyed. Specially when I already kicked that person once out because they were super rude. While kicked they tried to threat me to add them back and said they will do self harm if not added back. Other people asked me to give this person a change and when they came back first thing they did give snark comments on me misstyping stuff when I tried to tell him he had only one change to be nice again or I would kick him again.
And like I know its all because he has disability so he cant read people, but there is a limit how much annoying and selfish prick I can handle hating everything I hold dear before I snap at them. And feel full of hatred towards that person.
Now I m unsure what to do.
