For some reason, I had a horrible nightmare again.
It started like a dream I had had multiple times. For some weird-ass reason, I had to go to the old school I used to go as a kid and most of the people who were just standing there and watching when I was bullied when I was there. They were my classmates again. I have had this weird and creepy dream too many times to me to ignore it anymore.
Well, this time the teachers got pissed on me because in the dream I had been on a summer camp earlier on and seen a bombing and lived to tell about it. I don't remember the details but it had something to do with all the other people in Finland hating Israel except me. The teacher told my classmates to end me and they grabbed a gun from somewhere which was super weird because of just a half hour of earlier we were just all watching Lion king theory videos from Youtube.
And because for some reason calling 112 or 911 in the dream universe does not work I somehow hacked to my teacher's computer and started to stream the situation on Twitch and was begging people to call to the police but apparently no one did. I do remember one of my friends hosting the stream and then shutting it down completely. After that, I tried to escape with all the childhood art that was still in the classroom for some reason and managed to get lost in the maze of pipe organs weird classmate-looking people still trying to stab and shoot at me.
I remember managing to escape from most of them but getting alarmed by some random girl I never had seen before. And a flarging Minecraft Chichen. That is the last clear memory of my dream before I was rammed over by pipe organs and sharp corners of glass windows and woken up in the real world feeling cold.
The damn little girl and a Minecraft chicken.
At the moment I do know two things. I'm scared of studying anything or doing anything because I don't want to be the weird kid that gets bullied again. And I m sad how sometimes I feel that whole Finland is blind to the situation on Israel. I still don't get where is that weird-ass semi-automatic pipe organs coming from.
Like they operate with a small sized ball running on a track of notebooks which presses the keys as it moves so it somehow plays the music. Sometimes it also moves figurine dolls so if you follow the ball's route you can actually watch full-length movies with it.
I dunno. Some mechanical versions of Windows movie player maybe?
But ya. I just wanted to write this down before I forget it like always.
I still feel a bit dizzy and confused and maybe bit scared because I still have zero ideas why did I see a similar dream of me trying to get to some class with my former classmates from the age I was 10.
I do remember the other dream I had last night. I was at some kind of animal park with both live and stuffed animals. I could not enjoy it at all in my dream because in my dream I was harassed by some kind of sleep paralysis synthoms and I could not move my hands. I remember at one point that I was visited at some of mom's old friend's by some army flight jets just landing on a pond and asking me and my mom if we were ready to go to dine in some fancy restaurant. I don't remember so much about the theme of this dream. Except, again I was feeling super stressed about some trouble that was disturbing my normal life and was getting panic attacks out of it. If I recall correctly I somehow made friends with some weird animal which was supposed to be dead but it was coming back to life. If I recall correctly it was a white tiger/Lynx/raccoon hybrid. I just petted it and told it would be okay and it kept regrowing its limbs from the bones it found from the area. Again I was too stupid to run from talking zombie animal. But I was haunted by some skeleton humanoid demon creatures which wanted to hurt me so I was happy to have anything to talk with while trying to avoid losing the rest of my mind.
And sorry for really confusing text. I dunno if anyone is able to make any sense or even understand a word that I just wrote down. I just woke up and still feel half asleep. I'm not even 100% I'm really awake and that this is the real world after all. Maybe I'm still asleep. Well if this is the case and I'm still a sleep I m happy that no weird stuff is happening to me so far and no one wants to either kill me or abuse me or use me or hurt me in any way. But I do miss the feeling of having someone to talk with.
