Hello again .. and oh yes, Skaven are cute-adorable

Sorry for not replying to anything nor posting anything back. I've been super busy with work. Okay, I admit I might have had time to post after work but I found myself just so exhausted and overwhelmed and tired after the work hours. I love my current work-trainee position and I love my co-workers, but for someone who has not done anything besides sleeping and panicking for a couple of last years it's tough to get up and be social on daily bases.

I'm so glad that my boss gave me tickets to the local Bookfair in Helsinki. It was super fun to be there with my irl bestie. But it was also exhausting. It took me half a day to get up today. And because of it, I did not take my daily medicines in time and that is why I ended up confused and dizzy the whole day. Now. I m starting to feel alright and it s 21:57 pm and I should be going to sleep.

To reply to the comment I got last week; don't worry,  I m not mad on you or feel insulted. I know that this blog is kinda crappy. I partially did it on purpose because  I was super lazy and did not know what direction I would wanna take this blog. I kinda don't even want it to be popular. Just the kind of could save my daily thoughts that I can look back, later on, to better reflect and follow my own well being to help me win over my depression.

I always could move the whole thing to Wordpress but again for today when I would have had the time I did not have the energy. I spent half of the day sleeping and the other half to read Skaven lore from Warhammer world.

And when I realized I was too dizzy and confused to not be able to read anything I just gave up and started to play Mordheim the city of damned. I would still be playing it unless I did not make critical fail and run out of money. Time to start new Warband again.

And yes, I know that Skaven are the bad guys and stuff.  Maybe because I myself have gotten so much hate on myself for being non-Finnish by birth and adopted I can kinda relate to the Skavens for being hated for being Skaven. Yes I know its not the whole truth and Skaven are hated for their acts but I kinda feel sorry for them for not knowing anything better than just being Skavens and doing Skaven stuff.

And to the end I wanna share some pics I found from dA


http://fav.me/dc5rbiq


http://fav.me/dcztblu


http://fav.me/dblvh50


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So ya.. When I see these cute fluffy bois fight against this:



I m all about taking the furry side of the argument.
Not to forget that Skaven have the cutest way of talking. 

Vastaus kommenttiin;

Juu. Näemmä bloggeri ei anna minun itseni edes vastata kommentteihin. Taitaa olla aika laittaa alusta vaihtoon, ja tehdä uusi blogi paremmalle alustalle. Ja joo siis en ole tätä ulkoasuakaan jaksanut laittaa, kun tämä on aikaisemmin ollut lähinnä sellanen oma henkireikä omaan pahaan oloon, ja tyhjä kuilu jonne huutaa kun sattuu. Mulle aika uusi ilmiö, että kukaan edes tätä lukee. Mitä tuossa kesällä oli piikkejä. Ja joo mulla on ollut ihmiskammoa ja paniikkihäiriöitä jo vuosia koulukiusaamistaustan takia. Siksi osittain oonkin niin vainoharhainen sen suhteen kun jostain Kaksoissola.netistä tulee päivittäin pingiä, että joku tätä blogia lukee, vaikkei siellä aktiivisesti käy käsittääkseni kuin ylläpitäjät, ja sitten yksi henkilö, jona kanssa ei oikeen olla tultu toimeen, koska henkilö haluaa ystävyyssuhteilta ihan eri asioita kuin minä. Kyseinen henkilö on aikaisemmin tunnustanut stalkkineensa minua niin vähän hermostunut olo sen suhteen että mitä kyseinen ihminen minulta haluaa kun ei oikeen olla kyetty olemaan kavereita, ja ei ole tekemisissä tahtonut olla minun kanssa ( kun ei se ole onnistunut ilman kissatappelua.) niin sellanen "Mitä ihmettä minulta nyt halutaan fiilis."

Mutta juu. Kyllä tätä blogia saa toki lukea jos haluaa, mutta itse en vaan ymmärrä mikä omassa elämässä on muka niin kiinnostavaa..
Kun viime kesänä tuli sellaisia piikkejä, että blogia luettiin saman henkilön toimesta ´+100 kertaa viikossa.

Pitäs varmaa kysyä ihan suoraan?

Koska tätä blogia selvästi luetaan, niin mitä mun pitäs tehdä, että saisin kommentteja ja mielipiteitä näistä mun kirjoituksista?

Ja ihan sekin kiinnostaa, että mikä mun elämässä nyt niin kiinnostaa että tätä yleensä luetaan?
Mikä mun elämässä muka on niin kiinnostavaa?
Mutta sitten ei kuitenkaan niin kiinnostavaa, että jaksettaisiin kommentoida tai reagoida mun postauksiin millään tavalla.

Ihan vaan mietityttää, sillä olisi kivaa saada palautetta, kun tätä kerran luetaan. :3

Ja jos et uskalla tänne kommentoida niin toinen vaihtoehto on aina tuossa oikealla, josta voit lähettää minulle s-postia. Se lähettää ihan tämän minun blogin nimissä minulle s-postia joten sen pitäisi olla aika turvallinen käyttää, jos nyt niin kamalasti pelkäät yksityisyytesi puolesta.

Ja anteeksi nyt että puhun tästä taas, muttakun olisi kivaa tietää mistä kirjoittaa, niin että saisi vähän vuorovaikutusta minun ja teidän lukijoiden välille. :3

Books

I apologize that I haven't been posting in a while. I  managed to get myself an internship in a local bookstore and I feel really excited. I have been there now for a week and I love it.
My favorite section is the section for old books. I already managed to give it in and buy myself a book from there. The book I bought is called Pocahontas by Susan Donnell. I think I would be buying lots more books from there if not my own bookshelves weren't so full of stuff already.

But ya. Another thing that has kept me from writing this blog is the boring fact that while I keep pouring my heart out  I feel like all the same people keep reading this and none of them comments anything. It feels weird. It still makes me feel lit like Im being stalked by some creep.

But I guess  I should just try to be an adult and ignore the creeps. After all, I have had this "diary/blog" thingie for ages to pour my heart out while I felt bad.  I still feel like I wanna say that if some of you are just stalking-stalking me and feeling like you have something you want from me or something you want to say to me please open your mouth and say the thing you wanna say and then move on and go do something interesting and something you enjoy.

I m still having a hard time to believe that anyone would find my life or my blog a least bit interesting. But according to the statistics, I m reading this blog is actually kinda popular... Mostly on people who love GNG wich I find really interesting since this blog has nothing to do with GNG.

It's like you would hear a person who loves coffee would keep his or her whole day busy by reading a blog that is all about how to make perfect tea and why coffee stinks. Mostly maybe because I find the "latest GNG" aka GDN bit of like lazy fanfic more than real story anymore. And I have to say I'm most disappointed with Mister Takahashi. I loved his old works. But this one feels more like a fanfic than anything. And maybe that is the case. Maybe it, in fact, is fanfic at this point. Maybe the publishers -The same ones that demanded that dogs should talk like humans etc- are now in the charge of making the whole plot.  I read the last spoilers about who gets killed and ya, I m not spoiling anything to you. But I have to say that the "New Ginga is like a limping dog on his last breath after getting hit by a truck twice after getting hit by a shotgun in the head to roll to the road in the first place. "

There just is no magic anymore. In my case, the magic started running out on GDW when Weed seemed so much like a re-write of GNG.

But ya, if you are reading this it would be nice to know why you keep reading my boring blog?
To be honest I would have to say that if someone else was writing a similar blog than mine I would not read it because my life is super boring and I don't like to read about boring stuff. I'm just having hard time to believe that you have the energy even to open this page when you people could be talking and chatting with your friends on Skype or Discord or whatever you people like using atm.
In fact, I do have my own Discord server if you people wanna chat with me. Hit me with a comment if you want the URLs.
Yours.
Varjokani