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Hi everyone. I finally got my wireless network working somehow.. Or maybe its just it that it works again and then its dead. I m still bit of quessing the last one.

Well. I had been hard weeks because my granny died on my Birthday morning and we just got a call from hospital. I was like "WHATATAAAA!?!?!? HOW...? " partly because last time when I saw her she was alright and I borrowed some books for her. I still find it hard to understand that she is gone.. Or maybe that she does not live there anymore. Good bye strawberry juice of hers.. and beetroot stew and apples... Her apples where huge. I remember that they were so big that I could get them stucked in my coats pocket even my pockets were huge also. .. Huh.. Its just so weird how much of stuff you are going to miss when you realize you are going to be without it. I mean we always got huge amount of strawberries for her own garden even she was 92 years old at least.. I had to eat them so much that when I saw a strawberry I almost died and I dont like them so much, but still I miss them.

Its really odd how we miss things we dont have  and when we have them we think its "how it should to be" and we dont care so much of it. We love our life and we have such amount of hurry and work so we forget how much of important things we have. My mom friend loved running till she got into coma and when she woke up she could not walk again. I m pretty sure that if someone would tell her half year before she would call her or him a liar and say that it was a good joke.

I really have no time write so much at the moment but I courage you guys to think of your lifes. What do you have today? Home and house? Health? Life?  And what of all about your friends? Do you care them? Yes or no. We all needs to enjoy things we have before we lose them.

Also I would put the cat on table and ask; IF YOU DIE TODAY WHERE YOU GO?
That is really important question that all of us needs to think. Where would us go? Where we want to go? Is there a heaven? Or maybe a God?  If there is God what would he like about you? Would he get you in when you die?

I  m not trying to preach here I m just saying think of it. We cant ever know when its our last breath here. We can be okay and then someone can drive over us in the road and we can be dead. Think of it... Maybe today befrore you go to sleep. Think of all what I said. You are alive but not forever, and when your life ends are you ready to face that all what happens after it. I´d say about myself that I m but how about you?

-Varjokani