If you knew what I truly m, I would break your heart..

I just realized that if you people would know me and know my adoption background etc.  you surely would hate me and want me dead. It hurts me so bad. So much pain inside this body for bad words people have already told me irl.. So much deep suffering that I can't take no more bad words. That is why I stay silent. But I keep wondering how many of you would hate me for it.. If I told the truth. After all what is the truth?
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Deep thinking again.