why me?

I really feel annoyed now.. I mean I still have fever and I feel too tired to read anything (after finishing Lords of the Rings) and too full of energy to sleep. Other thing that is stopping me from sleeping is the heat and feeling like I m boiling alive. I really hate this annoying situation.

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Waked up and installed Löve

Good morning.. I feel better now... I think. I still have cold shivers because of fever not calmed yet down. But the headache I had yesterday evening is gone. In fact I feel brilliant. One of my friends told me about a script language called LUA and now I feel like I must try it out right now. Yes I don't know anything about that language yet, it looks quite similiar than the codes that I have used before so I think I will manage quite nicely. Well we will see that later.

But however I still should think about coding languages because in my studies I have to choose one coding language to learn and become expert with. Well I haven't given that much of touch lately but I kinda feel like I should. After all it will be a move that will take effect on things I will do in my future.. Untill I decide to learn some other language also.  But then maybe I m over dramatizing things again?

Well we will see that later.

Now I m going to be really really stupid rabbit-brained kid and download LÖVE and see what happens.

Yes I have a bad habit of exploring things via "Lets see if I push this red button what happens.." And I really enjoy doing it when I m stuck in bed because of being il.

I will be writing here soon..

So beware!

Feverish nonsense of nothing interesting

I just feel like writing a story even I don't have any ideas what to tell. Also I feel numb and sensless like I was half dead. Maybe it is because I feel really tired... But somehow I still want to write a storyline of mice and rats and all kind of creatures fighting for their freedom somewhere far away from here in the era when humans were not concoured all the forests and land in world themselves.

I have imagine in my head about animals ruling all by themselves and taking care of their own busines. But maybe it is because of fever starting to rise again.. or maybe it is because I just read 'The secret of Nimh' but at the other hand I think it is because of both.

Forest, walleys and rivers they all kinda float before my eyes and I feel like I m there not here. I kinda can hear the wind in trees and feel the sun in my face. But not only I can feel the warmness of the sun, but I can feel something really evil lurking around.

That is the world I wanna write about but my head feels kinda empty of toughts. I don't have any ideas what would be the main plot. Lost sword or lost "hero" finding himself being hero feels too used for me.. Same thing goes with the "One ring to rule them all."

Maybe I m odd, because when I  m tired or ill I always want to write stories and do stuff.. Just when I was supposed to rest and take a nap I want to write or do something else instead.. Who cares. I bet no one reads this blog anyways. Well I don't care it either if anyone really reads this or not but I just feel like this writing kinda clears the mist inside my head.

Well my head is different for rest of us. After all I was supposed to be "A wild child".. I have read it takes only 2-3 years to human grow up his/hers first years without any contacts in other humankind to become one ... well whatever.

I just keep thinking what would happen if not and when not that and this but same time I feel like thinking of nothing, when the other side of my head keeps planning the plot for new novel. Well I quess it is normal for me when I m ill. I never tought of it before before now.

Maybe I should stop writing all this nonsense and shit?.. Why? Then I would feel really bored and I really don't feel like I want to go to bed just yet. And maybe if I keep writing my toughts down I manage to cathch up that Fever raged picture from my head and make a good book plot from it.

That brings to me to think that I never published any of my official texts anywhere.. Should I? Maybe not. I think they would be too boring so no one would not read them anyways. But anyways why do I think of what people do think anyways? Why anyone thinks of that?

It seems to be somekind of inner type in our nature to think what other think of us even it only makes us to think before we act, but somehow it also makes us to not act.. Because we somehow are scared of the world around us. Why? That is a question we all can ask from ourselfs and maybe we wake up a bit smarter at next morning.. Maybe not but maybe.

Drawing ideas?

私は私が退屈退屈退屈退屈だ..
私は次の描画にどのような新しいアイデアにたい..あなたは私のアイデアをお願いしますお願いします
すべてのアイデアは暖かく歓迎されています。

-Varjokani

Well I think I m saved..

I managed to download free version of Daz studio to give it as present to my boyfriend. I really hope he likes it.. ^^

But I m still ill and feel really odd and kinda over energized and I hope people will not hate me now. If they do hate me well they haven't said anything just yet.

Still I should be doing some school stuff soon. I still have to finish my audio book and couple other things. But also I feel kinda too tired to think about them now. Maybe I will think of them later and suffer for them later. At the moment I feel too feverish to think anything smart but also I feel I have too much energy to go to sleep now. Also how could I sleep when I promised to go to my boyfrend's birthday.

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I should also think what code I m going to specialize. I have been thinking of Java Script, Phyton and Lua and I feel like having difficulties to choose between those. Maybe I will make out something maybe I will not. Who knows. After all we cant tell what happens untill it happens for sure.

Also that saying goes with all things with our lifes. We can't know anything until it happens. We might live our last minute now or tomorrow or maybe it will come after next thousand of years..
We will never know. Also  I think it is a good thing just for our own safeside to not know happenings of tomorrow.  Just think of it. If we would know what would happen to us next we would surely try stay "home and safe" doing nothing and then will would notice we would die knowing having really boring life behind of us.

Would that be nice? Maybe for some of us would say yes but I m not so sure about it. I somehow like surprises and interesting events in life.

But I will writing more soon
-Varjokani

should buy birthday present but ill

Sometimes things just can go so wrong.. I just should be buying something cool for my boyfriend but I got infection in my ears and I feel like I m going just lay here and keep thinking what should I do..

Maybe I figure out something.. Only problem is that its 20:12 and deadline for Birthday partys is tomorrow.. I so hate myself now.

Also I took my kittens neutried today. They are so "drunken" now. I just fear they hurt themselves. Now they are sleeping and I think its a good thing.

Hello again!

Yes its ages since I last posted here or even opened this page. I have been studied a lot. Now I know the basics of Java Script and am able to do lots of nice things. But what you do say if I start adding here some of coding tips? I mean would anyone be interested? .. I guess no but still I also enjoy fooling around with the Sims2. Nope I m not going to grow up for long time. Have fun and suffer for it!

And yes this blog is going to be updated a lot before I will start using it again. Hehehe. ^^'

Just small update to my blogs layout..

Yaya.. I have been busy lately with studies. But the good side is that I finally managed to add here my own banner to deviantArt.com. :-)
-Varjokani

New task to do

Hello again!
Sorry for break at writing. I was bit ill and felt too lazy to write anything. :/
Now I m start to be okay again from fever I got. Nasty fever and ilness always attacks me always when Winter makes its way to Finland.. Yes. I m such "un-perfect" Finnish. I like snow yes, but get easily cold.

But however I must keep studying and learning new things. Yesterday we got new task. We needs to make voice/audio document or fiction play and I m planning to gather some of my old palls to make audiobook of mine own.. Or at least we are going to read one chapter via 6 min time we have.

I will be doing all background sounds, foley art and stuff. This will become really interesting..

And really REDWAALLLL!! ... HEhhe. ;-)

Good morning people and animals. :-D

Yay! Good morning people!

Yes finally now I will have my first lessons about proper programming! Yay!
Because of that I want to share with you something


Yes it tells about "Wandering 'till the promised land of Rölli trolls"
Röllis are Finnish fantasy creatures. :-)

New sequense at studies

So were having one session of studies ending and the an other new one beginning. Now we will study about voice, video and programming. I hardly can't wait. I m so happy..
Okay I also m tired because I was troubles at getting a sleep last night.

But still I feel like I want to learn new things.. Just hoping I don't fall a sleep middle of class.

Also I needs to start planning my own movie project. This time it has to be video, not animation. I just hope I get some nice ideas.

Well all I can do is to believe myself or then be really dang lucky stupid rabbit as my friends call me. :-)
Lets see how I can manage.

Well I only have two options. Manage it great and do it so I can be at 3rd grade next year, or then fail and then suffer for it, so I think I just have to do it.

Lazy lazy me

Hi again!
I have been wasting whole of my weekend with sleeping and being really lazy. Well also I upraged my Habbo.com "Water to all pets project". Yes I made account Habbo.com (English version) one evening when I had lots of fever and I could not sleep but wanted something to do. Well now I have opened my room to all pets so their owners can bring them and so they don't need to pay water from store. They can use my water bowls free.

Yes I m sure many of you thinks "well what you got for that?" Well honestly I m so stupid and simple person that I just enjoy seeing other Habbos being happy when their pets have free water and pets can play also. It makes them happy. And when pets are happy their energy auto rises. That means you can level them up faster. :-)

Also I have playing Sims Medieval. Somehow I like it a lot. I got the main game as Birthday present from my boyfriend because he and I love all Medieval stuff.  IT was kinda shocking at first notice you could have sword fight and yo could actually kill your "enemy" (meaning the neighbor you don't like) by just fighting him. Also some Sims can steal and poison their neighbor. Its freaking scary. O__O


-Varjokani

Are you bugging GSM or wut?

Okay this is interesting. How can I have wip flipper in use at www.gosupermodel.fi even I m not vip.
This is kinda odd and I tough that I m sharing this pic with you guys. ;-)
Is this some update or what?

How I have this on use even I m not vip?!? O__O

An other view

Yay! Finally today I got to know that I have passed the Swedish exams and with good score!! I m so happy. Swedish language ever was my strong side. I think I m pretty  sure you can't imagine how happy I was when I heard that. I felt like I could just jump of joy and scream.

Well now I have again empty space between classes so all I can do is sit here and wait for next glass to begin. As I have time to write I could tell you about yesterday. We supposed to have whole day class at studio,  but for our class bad luck there was school photo-day and studio was in use whole day.  And all other class rooms were taken. All we could do is hang on and wait the time to go pass. And for mega bad we had photo-shooting work to do for teacher. At the beginning of the day we had free class at one class. Well we took all flash-stands and stuff and carried it to class. Then EVEN that class was taken for after 12 am ad then there were again all of us standing or sitting in hall and waiting. It was really annoying. And I again learned that my class is not mature enough to given EVEN pillows.. Because we play with them and act like 3 year old kids. Well it was fun.  :-D

Info..?

So I have new task to be done for Swedish lessons. I needs to tell about manga drawing in front of class  in SWEDISH. This is going to be interesting. Also I heard that I passed the exam. At the moment I don't know more but I m lucky to know I don't need to re-do whole thing. Also today I m taking Zorro and  Veli to vet for first time. I m sure they will be nervous for taking into car but I m glad the wet does not live so far from us. :-)

Phantom of The Opera Finnish

How many of you knew there is actually Finnish version of this song also?

Media mind?

Media has the power to control life.. How often do  you even think about it?
But how often its true?

Lets think about it. We have Facebook etc. Our friends like something there with the button "like" and they ask us also to like it, and then we "like" it and we don't care about anything. How there could be any harm with that?

But how many of us even thinks about it that way. Who can see what we  like? Facebook promises to keep our things private if we make our settings "private", but how then we see ads about things we are interested in. Same goes with Google Adds.. And then we have a good change to see what is happening. But do we want to see what social media is doing? Media knows everything about you. You can keep your eyes closed and live happily ever after, and I m pretty sure that is what you are going to do also.

-Varjokani

Worried..

Huh I managed to do my Swedish test.. And I think I made it okay, but today I m finally getting to know how it really went. My studies are going fine.. Too bad that I can't say same about one of my classmates. He keeps being "ill" and lazy and now he even has started lying to others. Like he said to me "Wait for me I will be going to buy some lemonade and will be back soon.."

That was before our last class. I promised to wait for him because he did not know they way to class.. Well he just decided to disappear. Well of curse I was worried of him because I had promised to walk him to the next class and I was sure something bad happened to him. I tried to call him because I had seen he had a phone with him. Still somehow he claimed next day that his phone was at home. -_-

That is why I feel sad about him  because he is nice fellow but I think he got some troubles. :/

I DID IT, didn't I...

Well now its done. I did make quite good work with my Sweden exam, or at least I felt like it was easy task to do. Well I cant be 100% sure before I see the exam. And its going to get lot of time before that happens, because our teacher must check them all at first.

And then the an other work this out thingie on my list now  is my work training place but I think I JUST HAVE TO FIGURE something out.

".. I did it didn't I..? But its over yet!"

  -Bigwig (Watership down)

 

Well kids are kids and I forget everything...

By that I  mean my kittens Zorro and Veli. Usually its Veli who starts playing and getting wild 11.0pm but yesterday evening it was Zorro. I put lights out and go to sleep and Zorro goes to jump on my studying desk on my laptop. When I put lights back I notice him sitting there with puppy-eyes looking at me.

And yes today was a task to bring some random item to take a photo for studies. Well I complitely forgot that. I was like "eeps.." But luckily I m not the only one who did not remember. I will have studies and exam about WORD typing programme.  Lets see if I manage to do it. I can remember all things yes,  but I kinda feel like I m going soon fall a sleep. Well lets hope for the best. I just don't wanna fail anything. ALSO I NEED to remember to read for my SWEDISH EXAM this evening. Because we will have large exam about it tomorrow morning. Yep. Everyone who know me I m such sleepyhead at the morning. And again I only can hope for the best.

-Varjokani