Too much silence

When its too much silence this is how I react. Hahha. This is why I love Vinnie. Hehehhe. ---

Studies ending from 2103 last post

Well now it is time to write my last blogtext at this period. Tomorrrow I can sleep with no more worries about studies. Today was my last day at studying.. Well don't worry I haven't been kicked out from there (yet.) I will come back to school at next autumn when the leaves fall.

Somehow even I do feel relaxed and happy I find myself quite melancoly about when I think I m going to miss all the fooling around the classroom with my classmates. I m really going to miss it. But then again I know we all can rest from hard work and long days at coding etc.

And I m 100% My neck will love it. I have had horrible pains in my neck and upper  back. AND I damn know also the reason why --> Coding. ^^'

Well I have been warned about it but still I don't feel the pain when I code and do something interesting. And I kinda love coding and programming and  want to do it more.. Yes I m doing this even  I know it is not maybe the best for me.

But how can I stop doing something I love? How can anyone stop anything they love?
I know it is called addiction but when I think of it I notice that everyone is somehow addicted or depending of something.

For some it is friends, some it is tobacco, drawing, dogs, cats, pets, hobbies, running, sleeping, reading,..

For me I feel quite unpleasant if I just stand and do nothing.. So I enjoy most of myself when I keep coding simple codes html java script. etc.

-Varjokani

Well I think I m saved..

I managed to download free version of Daz studio to give it as present to my boyfriend. I really hope he likes it.. ^^

But I m still ill and feel really odd and kinda over energized and I hope people will not hate me now. If they do hate me well they haven't said anything just yet.

Still I should be doing some school stuff soon. I still have to finish my audio book and couple other things. But also I feel kinda too tired to think about them now. Maybe I will think of them later and suffer for them later. At the moment I feel too feverish to think anything smart but also I feel I have too much energy to go to sleep now. Also how could I sleep when I promised to go to my boyfrend's birthday.

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I should also think what code I m going to specialize. I have been thinking of Java Script, Phyton and Lua and I feel like having difficulties to choose between those. Maybe I will make out something maybe I will not. Who knows. After all we cant tell what happens untill it happens for sure.

Also that saying goes with all things with our lifes. We can't know anything until it happens. We might live our last minute now or tomorrow or maybe it will come after next thousand of years..
We will never know. Also  I think it is a good thing just for our own safeside to not know happenings of tomorrow.  Just think of it. If we would know what would happen to us next we would surely try stay "home and safe" doing nothing and then will would notice we would die knowing having really boring life behind of us.

Would that be nice? Maybe for some of us would say yes but I m not so sure about it. I somehow like surprises and interesting events in life.

But I will writing more soon
-Varjokani

私は痛みを伴う何を参照してください。誰かが自分の人生を殺したとき。

人生はとても短いです..？
一部の人はただ座って何もしない理由を私はまだそれを得ることはありません。また、私は彼らを助けるために何ができる何かがあることを願っています。私はただ座って凝視し、他は無駄に命を殺すときに座るのは嫌だ。しかし、私は何ができますか？私はそれらを強制することはできませんので、私はただ座って、彼らはアイデアと共に生きる彼らの変更を殺すように見守る必要がある "私は怠け者ノーメートル、私は後に動作します。"それは私が見て痛い方法ああ。私は悲しい思いがする。 ：（

Autumn coming up..?

I really don't know if there is any point of write blog no one will never read. Even in accident but because I m bored now I think I will just write it in any case. Today it should be warm weather but still it was chilly to me at dawn. Yep. It seems that the  summer finally is over and the season of leaves is coming. And just when I got  used to sun it is gone. Well it isn't snowing yet.

Most of people who never have seen snow think that it must be awesome and cool to see, but I who see snow every Winter think that its boring and COLD. I can tell you that it feels like you would be standing in giant freezer with no way out. Its not nice feeling. At cold wintery nights and evenings I usually go to my bed and make there my own "nest". Lots of warm pillows and warm night wear and maybe bottle of lemonade and a good book and  I m perfectly happy.. As well as lines don't get broken.. Sometimes at winter there is so much snow that trees just fall on power lines, or at least they lean on them enough to  make whole village where I live black and cold place. Usually it takes just about day to fix that but if damages are on large area we can be couple of days blocked from outside world.   That is the bad side of winter that seems to be not so much thought about when people think how "nice" snow is.

Okay luckily there is time to wait until winter comes because leaves are just starting to fall. But you can never know before that happens.

And how about Autumn now? Well its getting colder all the time, and suddenly there  is warm day and you feel like "why did I take all these clothes on?!" And when you leave them next day home you feel sorry for it. :-'D

Yep. Weather changes here a lot.

Small info of this year...

Yes I have been lazy with school. Also I have been troubled by not having enough time of my own. Like I have hardly time to study, and then the rest of my time goes when I try to reload myself for the next day. Yes I think most of people just think I m just shittyhead idiot who has no life but they are wrong. I m not idiot. I m just freaking bored of being "like everyone else". I just wanna be me, and this is how Varjokani became to be like it is today. Its 100% result of me being bored and wanted to do something random. Yes, I guess many hate me because of it because in in Finland you just have to be "normal" or then everyone will hate you. Or at least you have be like everyone else. Like part of large flood, and if you arent you are idiot, and stupid. I just guess I m too stubborn headed to act like people wish me to do. It just not me at all. Somehow I feel like if I try to act like everyone else I fail everyone, and I cant act anything else but to be stupid old me. 8-) I think everyone have right to be what they are, but somehow it seems like I dont have that right. But I dont care. I will be me till the very end of my days. And yes, I m being over dramatic but you just have to live with it. Just go away from this page... Oh and I almost forgot. I m planning new project but that is kinda a secret. You can see it later... If I ever get energy to post here when no one reads these posts anyway. :-) -Varjokani