I never had skill to shut up

This is really interesting. When I m planning going to sleep but then suddenly I feel like my head is full of pictures and sounds and all I want to do is write about them or draw or sing or do anything else than sleeping. Is this part of the adhd? Maybe. Or maybe we never shall see the truth that is hidden behind the mist that is all around my head.

Nowdays only way to open my heart or make any kind of diagnose inside my head for myself is to write things down. In situations like this I usually have nothing to tell or write about but when I do write I notice all the things I end up telling from deep inside my head. Its kinda scary, and it is happening again right now. I really have nothing to say about but still I keep writing words that come from somewhere deep middle of the dusky darkness that people call their imagination or their head.

Maybe I should go to sleep.. or at least do my readers a favor and write this in Finnish. But somehow I feel like this thing gets rotten if tried to force myself speak Finnish. Funny fact, I do lots of thinking in English while I m thinking etc what to write about.Or at least now when all words just flow from somewhere and make my hands move in keyboard it is English. I really don't know why this feels so natural. An other weirdo natural feeling thing is Russia. I started to learn reading it a week ago but still it feels like some magical force has turned right direction when I read English or Russian. It just feels like a dream within a dream. Like a distant memory of a dream I have seen long ago far from here.

But where did these memories came from? Why does it seem so right? Who m'I anyways?Many times I have felt my head and world inside my head ain't like any other. I feel like I m freak, and for damn sure you now think I m a freak. I don't care. The most crazies things number one is that I don't care about anything. Its mostly likely part of me being at home and thinking of job opportunities and changes I can take? Maybe I should to rush into action instead of sitting here but I just kinda aren't the type of person.. I dunno

And just to rewind  bit back like I told you earlier I had no intention to write long text. My idea was mostly to go to sleep but as soon as I started writing my head seems to be filled with words that come directly from somewhere to my brains and I only do like a robot, write without half of me realizing I have again filled almost whole page with this odd thinking I m doing.

Now when I remember it when I was a kid I used to talk to myself. Do it a lot. Then At age of 4 or 5 I learned other people did not do it. They kept thinking inside their heads. Then I studied it but now I keep thinking maybe this is somekind of variation of this thing.

And to the other thing, sometimes I feel like there are many personalities inside of myself. There is me, and the other me. Its really scary and spooky and I could write about it a whole book. Maybe I should not confuse your head no longer with it.

I already have spoken about it earlier. I think now it is time to me to go to bed and keep talking tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow sounds good doesn't it? Its surely is full of hope end being brighter.

Good morning peeeople

Hi there everyone. I decided that it is time to me to take myself from neck and straight up and start uploading here stuff daily. Yep, that is what I m going to do. If I fail, please feel free to hit me.. or Vinnie if I happen to escape somewhere like in my bed sleeping when I m lazy.

Yep yesterday was pretty good day and weather was good. Or maybe bit too  hot. But today I m sure ( or my inner radar in my head) tells me that it is going to rain and heavy. Man, I was just getting used to be in sunlight. Someone has been escaping sun and social life for while because "is scared of everything".

Well we must see what happens.. or maybe we never see it. Either way today I was asked to draw and after using two whole days being lazy and just managing to make small brush sets maybe I should start working harder. And draw something.

Too beautiful for my eyes...

Yep yep... I really should keep break from inernet but somehow scene like this makes my heart melt..

Its something that I found from one page.

And I really wanna start writing stories again.

Maybe I should? Or maybe not?

Too hard decition.
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And for sure too bad content for you bros. *Vink Vink* 

What .. Why did I drew this?

Hi again!
And yes why do I enjoy drawing these?
I really don't know. I just started to sketch something and came up with this image inside my head after thinking of Vinnie being evil cookie thief that needed to be captured..
Well I still like it myself and it was a good practice even its odd and weirdo..

 But I think this is good work, taking up the point that I drew it with my laptop.

Maybe I should stop drawing anthro furries for while..?
But then again maybe not because I find these cool and awesome.  

Plus now I really want to capture Vinnie..*grin*

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And this leaves me with just one question. I wonder who reads this stuff..?
Please comment and tell me what I should write about next? Or then just give me drawing ideas.
But please comment!
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I feel so weirdo when I know people read my blog but none comments.

One or two thing about Biker Mice..

Yep. This is odd to know that these two songs were used as Japanese themes for Biker Mice in Japan, as I understood from Japanese wikipedia to claim. What do you think?
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I think they are nice but kinda different for the other ones I have heard.

And the reason I have been listening these is that I have been drawing this and that..

And yes I still needs to color this one..

Waked up and installed Löve

Good morning.. I feel better now... I think. I still have cold shivers because of fever not calmed yet down. But the headache I had yesterday evening is gone. In fact I feel brilliant. One of my friends told me about a script language called LUA and now I feel like I must try it out right now. Yes I don't know anything about that language yet, it looks quite similiar than the codes that I have used before so I think I will manage quite nicely. Well we will see that later.

But however I still should think about coding languages because in my studies I have to choose one coding language to learn and become expert with. Well I haven't given that much of touch lately but I kinda feel like I should. After all it will be a move that will take effect on things I will do in my future.. Untill I decide to learn some other language also.  But then maybe I m over dramatizing things again?

Well we will see that later.

Now I m going to be really really stupid rabbit-brained kid and download LÖVE and see what happens.

Yes I have a bad habit of exploring things via "Lets see if I push this red button what happens.." And I really enjoy doing it when I m stuck in bed because of being il.

I will be writing here soon..

So beware!