Sivun alfa-versio ylhäällä

Okei eli nyt oma serveri ylhäällä ja toiminnassa ja voin alkaa rakentamaan sivua tuon rangan päälle jota oon tehnyt.

En jaa vielä mitään teille rakkaat mutta saatte kyllä linkin kun jotain on ylhäällä virallisesti.

Opinnäytetyöstäni

Niin. Tänään olen laittanut palvelinta pystyyn ja opetellut käyttämään palvelinta.
Lisäksi tarkoituksena olisi saada raakarunko jo tänään ylös nettiin jotta siihen voisi rakentaa ensin kirjautumispalvelimen ja tämän jälkeen muuta sisältöä.

Stay tuned punks! 
-Stoker

Tarinavaara.

Okei rupean nyt varmaan kirjoittamaan jotain tarinaa vaikka sitten  suomeksi tänne joten teitä on varoitettu.
Tarina ei sovi kenellekään missään tilanteessa.

If I would write a story..

Would you read it?
Yep. This is a question for you ninjas in dA! 8-)
And yes what I have in mind at the moment is kinda related to Throttle. *vink*

Vastaillaas sitte näihin aikani kuluksi..

Jep.. I got kinda tagged here.. Damn it and I tough people only dared to tag me in dA.
..

11 Kysymystä seuraaville 

1. Miten luokittelisit tyylisi?

-Das Baikarmaus 8-)

2. Lempiblogisi?

-Olenko pahis jos sanon että oma blogini? Sinne on kivaa kirjoitella kaikkea mitä milloinkin ajattelee ja sitten myöhemmin miettiä ja katua että jahas.. oonko mä joskus kirjotellut tällastakin ja ajatellut tällastakin? XD

3. Mistä et pidä itsessäsi? 

-Tjaa.. aika paha. En nyt tiedä.. Ainakaan en ole kovinkaan iloinen siitä että mulla tosiaan on tuo lievä adhd, jonka seurauksena mulla on kaikki huonot ominaisuudet mitä BMFM Vinskilläkin. Paitsi ettei mulla ole ketään Turbon tai Moton kaltaista jonka seläntaakse piiloutua kun satutn töppäämään..

4. Kuvaile luonnettasi kolmella sanalla?

-Pirteä, Omalaatuinen , Vinski (Onks toi ees sana?)

5. Lempijuomasi? 

-Coca Cola

6. Miksi aloitit bloggauksen? 

-Tjaa siihen on useita syitä. Ehkä pääasiassa siksi että mulla on paljon enkunkielisiä ystäviä deviantART.com sivuston kautta ja yleensä kirjoittelenkin enkuksi kaikkea mitä ajattelen ja mietin ja niin edespäin..

7. Lempihiustenvärisi? 

-Omani. 

8. Osaatko automerkkejä? 

-Toyota,Honda, Subaru, Mitsubishi, Nissan, Mersu, Volvo, Opel, Wolkwagen, Sisu, Lada... ööh.. Peugeot, Subaru, Ferrari.. enempää ei muistu mieleen.

9. Haluaisitko lävistyksen jonnekkin, minne? 

-Enpä oikeastaan. Olen aika kipuarka. Korvikset pitäis varmaan joskus hommata koska sukulaiset ostelee mulle niitä jatkuvasti vaikka tietävät ettei mulla ole (vieläkään) reikiä. Ja kyllä ikää on se 19v.

10. Sivusto, jolla vietät eniten aikaa?  

-Veikkaan että aika moni tulee valittamaan että mun pitäisi sanoa Gosupermodel.fi mutta jotenkin tuntuu että kyllä se enemmän tuo deviantART.com on. 

11. Pidätkö kissoista? 

-Niiden kanssa ei voi elää, eikä ilman niitä voi elää. Okei mulla vaan on kaksi pentua vahdittavana ja ne osaavat välillä olla hyvinkin rasittavia. Mutta pidän minä heistä.

~Varjokani

//
Ja tiedän että taggauksen ideana on taggata muita mutta olen kapinallinen enkä taggaa ketään. Hahhahahahahha!

Kirjoittaisko turri-ficcejä vaiko ei? Vaikea päätös väsyneenä..

Mä myönnän etten ole mitenkään täydellinen ja osaan välillä käyttäytyä aika idioottimaisesti.. no mennyttään ei voi muuttaa ja pitää silti jatkaa eteenpäin.

Nyt kun taas on opiskelu alkanut ja kesäloma kului aikalailla BMFM-ficcien kanssa. :3
Nyt tuli itsellekin kauhea himo ruveta kirjoittamaan jotain.. Ehkä pitäisi? Tai sitten ehkä ei?
Tai ehkä kuitenkin pitäisi?

Näitä asioita pyörittelen päässäni ja mietin josko kirjoittaisin jotain, ja samalla mietin että minne pistän takarajan. Miten pahaksi se saa mennä?

Juu nyt taidan olla liian väsynyt ottamaan vastuuta siitä mitä kirjoittaisin jos rupeaisin ficciä tänne suomeksi kirjoittamaan. Ehkä Enlganniksi? Tai ei sekään varmaan tilannetta parantaisi. .. Ei ainakaan hyvässä mielessä koska setti olisi kuitenkin liian outoa ja katuisin sitä aamulla.

Niin ja jos joku teistä ei sitä vielä tiedä mulla on lievä ylivilkkaushäiriö jonka johdosta olen hyvin impulsiivinen, ja liian usein huomaan että toimin ensin ja ajattelen vasta jälkikäteen. Juuri sen takia tässä nyt päivittelenkin ja mietin että pitäiskö kirjoittaa tarinaa vaiko eikö?

Jotenkin kirjoittamalla saan pääni selvitettyä kaikkein parhaiten. Yleensä teen sen enkuksi mutta nyt jostain syystä iski kova himo kirjoittaa ihan suomenkielellä.

Tiedän että varmasti (jos ylipäätään olet jaksanut tänne asti) lukea pidät minua sekopäänä. Mutta minua ei kiinnosta. Itsepähän olet blogitekstiäni lukenut tänne asti. Joten itse saat päättää mitä teet elämälläsi joten minua on turhaa syyttää siitä että vein turhaan aikaasi.

Tällähetkellä vain ei yhtään tekisi mieli nukkua, vaan tekisi mieli kirjoitella jotain kivaa. Jotain turreihin liittyvää.. mutta taidanpa jättää ainakaan Suomeksi julkaisematta koska tiedän katuvani sitä heti huomenna aamulla kun luen ensimmäiset kommentit täältä.

...
Mut miten on? Kirjoittaisko jotain kivaa omaksi riemuksi vai ei?

Oioi Gosu..

Juu itse kyllä opin virheistäni enkä aijo enää Gosun palvelimesta sanoa halaistua sanaa.. Sen enempää väittää sitä toimivaksi kuin kertoa että se lagittaa.

Mutta siis asiaan.

"goSupermodelin käyttäjille

Lähetän tämän kirjeen, jotta osaatte varautua tarkastukseen. Internetin sivistystoimi on palkannut minut selvittämään, opitteko mitään tätä sivustoa (goSupermodelia) käyttäessänne.

Tulevien neljän viikon aikana laadin raportin sivustolla (goSupermodelissa) havaitsemistani asioista. Mikäli sivusto (goSupermodel) ei mielestäni palvele sivistämistarkoituksessa vaan tuhlaa käyttäjiensä aikaa, esitän sivuston muuttamista niin, että 90 % sisällöstä on koulutuksellista.

Esimerkkejä koulutuksellisesta sisällöstä ovat matemaattiset tehtävät, oikeinkirjoitusharjoitukset ja maantiedon kokeet.

Terveisin

Herra Gerard Gerland

Tarkastaja, Internetin sivistystoimi

Ei pahalla mutta ainakaan itse en ole koskaan kuullut mistään Internetin sivistystoimesta, eikä myöskään herra Geraldin nimellä löydy mitään. Epäilen että kyseessä on kuvitteellinen henkilö sekä kuvitteelinen kampania.

Itseä kuitenkin hämmästyttää se miten vakavasti Gosu käskee meidän ottaa kaiken mitä sanomme ja teemme.

Kaiken pitää olla todenperäistä ja vakavaa..
Ja mitäs sitten itse tehdään jokin tällainen "pila" meille?

..

Ihmettelen täsäs vain että mitä ylläpidolla on mielessään.. Ja miksen minä ole mitään tuollaisesta sivistystoimesta kuullut.

Agenttirusakko pitää korvansa auki ja ...
Okei ehkä vaan keskityn koodaamaan sitä opinnäytetyötäni. 8-)
--

Image made by 

MayaPatch

from Deviantart.com

Too beautiful for my eyes...

Yep yep... I really should keep break from inernet but somehow scene like this makes my heart melt..

Its something that I found from one page.

And I really wanna start writing stories again.

Maybe I should? Or maybe not?

Too hard decition.
..

And for sure too bad content for you bros. *Vink Vink* 

Mitä ihmettä Gosu?

"Olet aikalisällä!

Olet antanut muille käyttäjille vaikutelman, että edustat jollakin tavalla goSupermodelin ylläpitoa. Annat viesteissäsi tiedotuksia, jotka eivät kuulu tavallisen käyttäjän toimivaltaan.

Olet myös uhannut foorumilla goSupermodelin hakkeroimisella: "Kimballakin napsahtaa. Harmi ku oon 19v niin hakkeroinnista tulee kunnon syytteet.."

Jos jatkat toimintaasi, joudumme valitettavasti poistamaan mallisi.

Terveisin,
goSupermodel-tiimi"



Ensinnäkin olisi eri kivaa tietää missävaiheessa väitin olevani ylläpidon jäsen. Olen nimenomaan sanonut että EN ole ylläpidon jäsen.

Myönnän kirjoittaneeni että harmittaa että hakkerointi on laitonta mutta en ole aikeissa hakkeroida sivustoa.

Ikävä kyllä en tiedä mikä Gosun ylläpidolla on minua vastaan mutta jotain on.

--

Ylläpidon vastaus

"Hei!

Kiitos viestistäsi. Emme ole sanoneet, että olisit väittänyt olevasi ylläpidon jäsen. Kirjoitimme, että olet antanut sellaisen vaikutelman, että edustat ylläpitoa. Jotkut käyttäjät ovat siinä uskossa, ja se ei käy laatuun.

Tässä muutama viesteistä, jotka ovat aikalisän taustalla:

"Eli joskus saattaa olla tilanne ettei selaimesi saa yheyttä Gosuun. Tällöin jokin kuormittaa Gosun palvelinta. Luultavammin iso käviämäärä.
Ylläpidon mukaan palvelujen kaatuminen on täysin normaalia eli ei mitään tarvetta paniikkiin."

"Se johtui siitä että palvelin syystä tai toisesta oli nurin hetkellisesti. Ylläpidon mukaan se on ihan normaalia."

"Wups.. Jokin on nyt tosiaan rasittanut serveriä. Mutta ihan normi juttu se on. Ei hätää. sitten jos tätä alkaa tapahtumaan päivittäin pitää mielestäni huolestua ja miettiä onko Gosu verkkohyökkäyksen kohteena.

Mutta tiedän että ylläpito kyllä pitää huolta ettei niin pääse tapahtumaan. :3"

"Se on normaalia ja kaikki on hyvin. :)"

Noista viesteistä saa kuvan, että sinulla on tietoa, jota tavallisilla käyttäjillä ei ole. Tämähän ei pidä paikkansa. Sen sijaan annat käyttäjille virheellistä tietoa.

Pääosa käyttäjistä on todella nuoria, ja emme halua, että heitä johdetaan harhaan.

Toivottavasti ymmärrät. Meillä ei ole mitään sinua vastaan henkilökohtaisesti.

Ystävällisin terveisin,
goSupermodel-tiimi"'

SORI VAAN jos yritin ehkäistä paniikkia joka viimeksi osittain mun takia aiheutui.

Ginga nagareboshi Gin tunnarin sanoitus

Vuoret kutsuvat sinua,
Taivas kutsuu sinua!
Sinä tiedät jonkun odottavan sinua kaukaisuudessa.
Tunnet veren palavan, oh nin elävästi.
Nyt sinä ymmärrät syyn miksi olet syntynyt

RUN AND RUN!
RUN AND RUN!

Muutu tuuleksi ja juokse.
Tule, ylitä se mitä teit eilen.
Haasta asiat jotka ovat suurenmpia kuin sinä itse.
Juuri nion, nuoruus on tähdenlento,
joka ei koskaan sammu.


Jos käännyt ympäri
rauhallisuus voi,
kuten äitisi kutsuen sinua äkillisesti pysähtymään.
Se unelma joka sinulla kerran oli,
Älä anna sitä kenelle tahansa.
Äla anna sitä, kenelle tahansa.

RUN AND RUN!
RUN AND RUN

Juokse tuulen kanssa.
Kyyneleet jotka olet pirstonut
ovat jo alkaneet kuivua.
Kirkas uusi aurinko on nousemassa
toisella puolen tietä.
Joku heiluttaa kättään ja sanoo "Juostaan rinta rinnan vierekkäin!".

RUN AND RUN!
RUN AND RUN!

muutu tuuleksi ja juokse.
Tule, ylitä se mitä teit eilen.
Haasta asiat jotka ovat suurenmpia kuin sinä itse.
Juuri nion, nuoruus on tähdenlento,
joka ei koskaan sammu.


Käännös englanninkielisestä käännöksestä:
Varjokani

Roolipelistä

Gosun ropen esittelyteksti.
Säilytettäväksi sen varalta jos keskustelu täyttyy ja poistetaan ennenkuin ehdin tehdä uutta.

『バイカーマイス』
Baⅰkamāⅰsu

Mainostajat törmäävät ärsyyntyneeseen Vinskiin omalla vastuulla.
(Me emme kaipaa mainostuksia koska emme myy emmekä osta mitään.)
-Vinski

PS. Tosikoilta pääsy ehdottomasti kielletty.

______________
кยкค ๏ภ кєภєภкเภ

Vinski - Kimba

Turbo - Requem

Moto - Darren Shan

Minni -Criticize

Anni - Maritsu

Rontti - Lara Moo

Leipäjuusto - Sipulin ropemalli

Miihkali - Sarakiina

Sädesilmä - Nickole
...


//

Jos joskus menee täyteen Kimba tekee uuden eiks je? :3

++
Muistetaan Gosun säännöt täälläkin eiks je? Jos kotikaljaa kitataan niin ostetaan kaupasta sitä alkoholitonta versiota ja ollaan cooleja ja ajetaan kypärät päässä. 
-Vinski

Epic anatomy learning..?

I might be entirely wrong but I m getting the feeling I m getting the hang on to this stuff.
I m feeling like I m finally learning how to draw anatomy free handed.
..
Yep and I think my web site project (that I have been building) is working out fine because my uncle promised to help me with PHP-coding.

Free sprite- maker

Links for game making.
Chibi character maker

Standing and watching pain is really hard..

After being depressed so many years and when finally feeling okay I find it hard to watch when very dear friend of mine is depressed..
was it really this hard to my friends also to watch me fading and suffering?
..
I want to give big hug to everyone who stood by my side when I was hurt and weak.
Same time I want to pray God powers to my friend who is really sad at the moment.

Oh how I wish if I could get his pains inside me.
He is so much weaker than I m. I feel like I was missing my own pain and would be ready to take my own pain inside me just to see him smile.
-Varjokani

Can't get sleep because good idea you wanna try out?

You ever feel like it at the night time that  you just can't get sleep and you have an awesome idea about something and then you just keep thinking how would you make your idea come true?
Well at the moment its kinda the feeling I m having..
Also I m sure that this warm and annoying weather is one reason why I can't get sleep. Its annoying. Its too warm and air seems too "emtpy".

Well here we go.. Or die trying to write synopsis for my school project.
"Its time to Biker Mice to hit the road again.."
-Varjokani

What should I say?

"Oh Modo's mommy"
-Vinnie

One more time old timer..

Bring it on..
And look what did I drew? :3
Stokeerr! *Evil grin*

...

And next in laundry list again.. is 

Modo

And again I happened to stay up awake late drawing furries. Smart me, da? *grin*

But if you want to see more of my drawings please visit my DeviantART.com gallery.

-Varjokani

What .. Why did I drew this?

Hi again!
And yes why do I enjoy drawing these?
I really don't know. I just started to sketch something and came up with this image inside my head after thinking of Vinnie being evil cookie thief that needed to be captured..
Well I still like it myself and it was a good practice even its odd and weirdo..

 But I think this is good work, taking up the point that I drew it with my laptop.

Maybe I should stop drawing anthro furries for while..?
But then again maybe not because I find these cool and awesome.  

Plus now I really want to capture Vinnie..*grin*

..
And this leaves me with just one question. I wonder who reads this stuff..?
Please comment and tell me what I should write about next? Or then just give me drawing ideas.
But please comment!
..
I feel so weirdo when I know people read my blog but none comments.

Things to remember--> DO NOT drive like Vinnie, DO NOT Think like Vinnie.. etc.. lol

Here again one year older but still as stupid as ever.. And what did we learn when I tried to ride my bike like Vinnie from Biker Mice -Not watching where driving and instead grinning and fooling around.- Well I got nice marks in my left knee and hand to remind about it for while. Hehhehee.

This is what I meant when I told you that I got the all bad habits of Vinnie.. And  I think he reminds me in bad way. But yes no bones broken as long as I know but just a little scratch in my wrist and an other in my knee. Everything perfect. *grin* No okay I better to stop this before I even start. *Slaps myself into face*

Well what did I got as Birthday present. As you all know I have hand problems with  my Nokia C7 and its BAAAD battery that can't hold for one 24h with out being loaded so now I got new Nokia with Windows sysetem.. And its just so weirdo that I  don't know how to use it..
Oh maybe  I do.

--> Its time to think Vinnie (un)-smart=
*Hits the new phone to wall*
Thhhehehehehe. XD

..
Okay just kidding. I m not throwing it to wall.. yet. But have a nice day peeeople. ;-)
-Varjokani

Biker Mice translated to Finnish

Kadulle iskee / Jalkakäytävä tuntee lämmön /Moottoripyörä sykkii
/ Mäntä alas metalliin/  Käy liman kimppuun//Pussittaa rikoksen pois
/ ja paineet polkimeen yeah !

 ( refrain)
 Biker Mice from Mars
 Biker Mice from Mars
 Biker Mice from Mars
Biker Mice from Mars

 Välähtää pyörät tulesta / hehkuen alas johdinta /
Oikeus on heidän syvin halunsa / kosto myös pitää (sitä) yllä /
Pyöräillen rappeutuneisuuden läpi / taistellen tiensä läpi
/ Pyöräiljät täällä jäädäkseen / Kunnes nahka repeytyy nahan läpi.

 Refrain
 Valaise yö kullalla / Hehkuen alas tietä /
 Pumpaten tulta niin uskaliasta / Paras pistää parastaan
/ Ajaen yön halki He tulevat olemaan siellä taistellakseen / Missä se on oikein
 / Prätkähiiret ikuisesti yeah.
 Refrain //





Missä hyvät lastenohjelmalaulut 2000-luvulla? O_O (Käänsin noin 4-5 min joten voi olla virheitä)

One or two thing about Biker Mice..

Yep. This is odd to know that these two songs were used as Japanese themes for Biker Mice in Japan, as I understood from Japanese wikipedia to claim. What do you think?
..
I think they are nice but kinda different for the other ones I have heard.

And the reason I have been listening these is that I have been drawing this and that..

And yes I still needs to color this one..

And here we go again, drawing Throttle

Well here we go again..

Yes I m going to color this one also.
Why are old cartoon characters so fluffy and cute. and why does I just need to keep drawing them?

Vinnie's additude on life..

I just needs to say that this little fellow has damn good way of looking of things..
Also wanted to share my newest drawing.

Onko Gosu nurin?

Juu eli tännne vaan mulle tietoja et oonko ainoa jolla on Gosupermodel.fi -sivusto nurin..
Vai oonko taas ainoo?

Just wanted to share my newest sketch

Vinnie is  ehem cute little rodent isn't he? ;-)

Kimba on kunnossa - Kaikki hyvin

Juu eli ajattelin tännekin kirjoittaa ihan vaan selvennykseksi koska monia on ihmetyttänyt tuo mun Gosu-aikalisäni.

Niin olin sen verran huolimaton ja tylsistynyt että menin puhumaan foorumilla Drupal- nimisen julkaisupalvelimen sisällä tapahtuneista hakkeroinneista ja mietin olisiko myös gosun tiedostoihin kajottu. Ylläpidon mielestä käytin liikaa media-termistöä jota "normaalit käyttäjät" eivät ymmärrä sekä sain aikaiseksi paniikki-tilanteen puhumalla julkaisupalvelimen hakkeroinnista.

Eli Gosua itseään ei olla hakkeroitu ja kaikki on hyvin eli ilmeisesti huolestutin porukoita turhaan.
Pahoitteluni tässä vielä että olin ylläpidolle ja modeille vaivaksi. Ensikerralla ku tulee tällasia uutisia vastaan pidän ne sitten omana tietonani enkä puhu niistä forkalla Gosulaisten kesken.

Ja juu eli Kimba on kunnossa ja samoin ilmeisesti Gosun julkaisupalvelinkin kun ylläpito ei ainakaan sanonut siitä juuta eikä jaata. Mutta sanoi että mallit on turvassa eli ei hätää.

-Kimba/ Varjokani

Be happy like a biker mouse... What the heck did I just write?

It is warm, and it is lovely. But somehow I ended up getting some kind of flu again.
I m sure that this flu haunts me. Somehow I always manage to get the same disease year after year.  Well it never stopped me and this year is not going to be any different. I m going to enjoy my summer no matter what.

..
At this moment I m doing it while eating icecream and watching Biker Mice From Mars -tv series.  That brinhgs me just one question. Did Vinnie have ADHD? Well if he has I m so proud of him to have same broblem as I have.  Being hyperactive can sometimes be really annoying. And sometimes the one who is annoying is you. And then you just wanna scream and hit your head to the wall. But it can be quite fun time to time.. It is really fun when it is you who saves the day being hyperactive and "crazy" (who should have died) but somehow you survive and save the day.

Sometimes it seems that people have forgotten how to be happy and enjoy their life. And many seems to have big problems trying to see the bright side of life. Even I who again got sore throat and flu realize to have this same problem. But maybe I just needs to learn something from Vinne and learn to simle when I do something really stupid and when everything is going to be mess.
 Maybe it would do a big favor to all of us to learn to think positive.  And yes what I just did write? Well never mind I m too lazy to undo, even it would mean I had to undo half of this text unless I want it to look like unofficial add that makes you to watch Biker mice from mars-series.  
Well like I said. Have fun and be happy! That is what I m going to do. And do it with style! Yeee-haa! 8-D
-Varjokani

Studies ending from 2103 last post

Well now it is time to write my last blogtext at this period. Tomorrrow I can sleep with no more worries about studies. Today was my last day at studying.. Well don't worry I haven't been kicked out from there (yet.) I will come back to school at next autumn when the leaves fall.

Somehow even I do feel relaxed and happy I find myself quite melancoly about when I think I m going to miss all the fooling around the classroom with my classmates. I m really going to miss it. But then again I know we all can rest from hard work and long days at coding etc.

And I m 100% My neck will love it. I have had horrible pains in my neck and upper  back. AND I damn know also the reason why --> Coding. ^^'

Well I have been warned about it but still I don't feel the pain when I code and do something interesting. And I kinda love coding and programming and  want to do it more.. Yes I m doing this even  I know it is not maybe the best for me.

But how can I stop doing something I love? How can anyone stop anything they love?
I know it is called addiction but when I think of it I notice that everyone is somehow addicted or depending of something.

For some it is friends, some it is tobacco, drawing, dogs, cats, pets, hobbies, running, sleeping, reading,..

For me I feel quite unpleasant if I just stand and do nothing.. So I enjoy most of myself when I keep coding simple codes html java script. etc.

-Varjokani

schoolwörks

And its half of the week done.. And today we should have all projects returned to teachers to get numbers.

Well I think I m quite lucky then.

Studying last week..

The sun just keeps shining and I find it to almost impossible to keep track of my own mind and thoughts.
I mean I should be editing couple of sound files and I have almost done them all but I find my own mind wandering all the time. I know its part of my ADHD and usually I can control it but lately it has been bit annoying.

I have always used wander in my thoughts when I m sad or something but now I feel bit annoyed. I guess its part of this era that there is only this week studying left before I can rest and the dead part of my brains wants me to sleep..

I say dead because myself I found myself enjoying studying and don't wanna this perioid to end so soon.
But kinda the other side of me wants to rest and draw when other one wants to study. I quess I just have to live with it and luckily soon its time to rest.

Latest news of my summer

The summer has finally fallen in Finland. Its kinda lovely how warm it is outside.
It is like whole new world after that cold and hard winter when you could barely see the sun. Now it seems the sun never goes to sleep but keeps hanging around 24/7. Well I have heard that in Lapland it really happens even never seen it with mine own eyes.

Well soon we will have our summer holiday. Actually now beginning week is the last one. I kinda feel sad because it. Well it is nice to relax and sleep but I have to admit that I m going to miss my class during the summer. We just have the best gang there. Everyone of us is just unique and that makes us "us". The second year media student group middle of nowhere.

I also feel bit sad when I think about it that during these two awesome year our group has become smaller when some of us have failed to keep going and studying. They have come tired because long days at school or then just wanted to do something else instead of studying. Well luckily the main group is still the same even     some people dropped out of the school at the beginning of the year. I kinda feel ashamed because I have already forgotten their names.

But I still want to keep studying editing and coding even I have learned myself my lessons how hard it can get. Maybe my classmates are right and I m mad.. After all I think we all are bit mad.  I just happen to be the one who loves coding Java Script and HTML5.

But what would I tell about my life and happenings..?
Please comment and say aloud what you want to read. :3

I would love to write a lot of things but then I notice I need to go to do couple of ambience thingies for Monday.

Writing more soon..
-Varjokani

Kimba sanoo pöö~

Juu Kimba sanoo pöö teille kaikille ihanille Gosupermodel.fi käyttäjille. :3

Peaceful inside..

So summer has again creeped and sneaked silently to Finland..
Everything is just so calm and peaceful and warm and in the evening I can hear as birds sing. It is just so peaceful and lovely.

Somehow I feel peaceful from inside also because school is soon over.

How can

How can it be possible that when its beautiful summer I end up being ill.?
Its just so unfair.

Time goes faster

Sometimes I wonder how does it possible that time goes so fast. And sometimes I even think if this is the "Biblical" The time will go faster in the end of times because the God is mercyful..-thingie. I just feel like I just have started studying and its already summer. I m sure I can't be onlyone who feels this way but surely someone else has to feel same way even I havent met him/her yet. But then again I feel happy because its summer and I can sleep all day long.. ~<3









                                                                                                              

Count down Gosun modehakuun :3

What happened to human rabbit hybrids?

Yes first there were one in China 2003 and then in USA later  and it was in news. I know they destroyed them but I still would want to  know why there is no  more news of any human rabbit mixing lately..

Its just weird that there is no talking about it. Just like those people would just quit their projects after spending so much money to it.

Why such silence about cloning and mixing humans and animals anyways?

Yes myself I use rabbit as my fursona but I totally found out that kind of mixing bit shocking.

Still at the other  hand I m interested to know what has been happening.

My personalities

When I come to think about myself.. About all sad times I had and all feelings that I  had in my life I feel thinking of how I become what I m. After seeing movie based of life of Truddi Chase, girl who had documented with MPD; multiple personalities disorder I have started to think of my own personality.
There is the part of me that is nice and caring and polite but really really weak from inside and who easily wants to cry. When the other side is ready to be social and nice and is always getting great ideas and inspiration from things around me...

Then I have the warrior side of my persona that sometimes I m ready to fight till death. The warrior type of me is silent and just stares people around me. I dunno maybe I m analyzing myself too hard. I just remember when being in confirmation camp I could not get sleep when others were yelling middle of night. I just rose from bed and stared them because I was too tired to talk.. And they said I looked like I was about to kill them. They were scared and I found it odd.

Maybe I do have many sides of my personalities and I think I should not have any reason to worry about MPD as long as I can remeber all things and don't feel like I m snipped awake from moment that I don't remember what happened.  So I think I m just normal kid but I still find this kind of thinking interesting. Yet I know when I write this all nonsense here I m sure everyone thinks I m stupid. But you know what. I could not care less. Or at least the "warrior" side of me does not care.

An other tough of life walue

What is that makes human life worth anything? Just lets take religion out from the picture and also lets cut out those who claim that life is worth something. Then what is it?

Yep mates it is nothing.. Then we keep thinking and asking why people kill each other. We must value life. But we don't want to do it. We don't want to speak about Christianity or religions. We want to ignore them because that means there is maybe a God and we maybe have to take respond to our actions and do something..

And the worse of it. We are NOT perfect. We are just humans.

Yep. For so many people it is hard bit to bite. We are not perfect. Ofcurse you say that you are perfect but I bet you also have evil toughs like "borrowin" your friends computer game, phone or anything. Even if that comes to your mind you have committed a crime inside your heart. Every single one of us has done it. We are not perfect. Even how much we claim we are.

So that is why it is so hard to think of God. It makes people sad. That also is used reason why "Not teach kids value of life.." and still kids grow up and become killers. What does the world do?
Nothing.

I m really worried about this whole situation because so many can commit school shooting these days. And its really sad. I m not afraid to die but that someone else might get hurt.. Someone who does not know that Jesus loves him or her. I just find it sad.

But what can I do? These days I think that often but still end up doing nothing for it.
What should I do? Should I speak to people about it. I m sure many would say no. Just be quiet and wait till you get some sense inside your head.. But how long can I or anyone wait when I see people turning into somekind of stone in front of the very eyes of mine.
People just become empty from heart. They have so much troubles that they harden their heart.
And then I just have to stand and watch how they unless die or kill someone else.

I m really really worried.
Maybe I m over reacting. Maybe I should not care of anything around me. But that would mean I should harden my own heart.

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My head is just so full of toughs  that I feel confused and feel like I want to say so many things aloud but then again I come to think if there is any good reason for it. I m pretty sure it helps no one even if I write this text here. Well at the moment I just feel like I want to write and write because of that.

Following the brown rabbit in Skyrim..

And I end up being almost robbed.

And what did I do? I just sneaked upon a rabbit like "Aww..  cuteey" And then bandits are after me and try to rob me. I m smart yes?

North Korean lead morals? Our morals?

Many people wonder what does go on inside Kim Jong Un -if he even thinks of nothing- I m sure about that.

Some might even think that maybe he does what he does because of his father. But do we really think why he does what he does? What are his moralic values of life?

We know that he has done lots of bad things. We all have done bad things. And we know that he is kind of person who does not be scared to put people in jail or kill them if he does not enjoy how "some of people" think.

Why is that? Is it just because he is mad? Nope. I think its more because no one taught him to value life itself. Nonsense you say.  But think of it. If he would keep life and freedom in high value would he try be so hardly what he now is? I m sure he does not.

And where does this way of thinking come from? From Bible?..
Nope. It is more like "Evolution-believing"  :
"We have no reason to be in this planet.. We are worth nothing.." -way of thinking.

And even we have seen this way of thinking effecting our own children in a way that they take a gun with them and shoot their class mates why still no one notices how dangerous is to teach "We have no reason to live.. unless we make it ourself."

Just thinking of it.

I m sure many of you will be disagree with this argument and I m not forcing you to be agree with me. Also I hope you are smart enough to let me have my opinion instead of starting a fight just to tell how wrong I might be.

I believe life is a gift from the God, and this kind of thinking puts us all in danger.

Final count down for this perioid..

I have been really buzy lately. I have been doing my own portfolio lately.

Well I needs to say that now I m sure there is something wrong  with my brains because I just love coding and editing.. Even how annoying it can get I still kinda enjoy it.

I have been learning HTML5 and CSS3 lately and I find it kinda fun also.

The only bad side of my life is that I still need medicines for my depression. And when I tried to take less-effective amount of pills I found that I somehow  felt like wanting to cry many feelings that I had "hidden inside me"..

I find it a good thing but then it came to my mind that what if I have got too addicted to them so I m depended of them and it feels bit scary.

Well I did not have any scary nightmares or anything like that.. or so far  because I don't remember having one unless you count my last night dream as one where  I was late for work time training-job place of mine and was about to drown because of huge amount of water in City alleys and inside a mall I was walking by there.

But I returned to my old amout of them and I think okay now. 

But yes I really feel I should write here more often because I feel it helps me to keep  my head clear from all things that are in my mind. 

Sometimes it just feels like I think I m not even awake even I m. But I suppose everything is a lot better than it was over a year ago because  I m able to walk among people and I m able to study with out panic attacks 24/7. 

Planning to do web layouts

Hi again. I think summer is slowly coming into this dark place in world that we call Finland.. Sun keeps shining but still its kinda cold and chilly wind  makes me feel freezing.

I know that people say that warm sun gives energy but somehow it feels like its draining all my energy.. Maybe it is just the cold weather that makes me feel really tired. Well what it ever it is I still feel kinda tired when I wake up early to go my everyday route to school and studies.

When I came home yesterday I just fell into my  bed and was planning to have "quick naps" that ended up me to sleep till next morning.

My studies are going fine.. I just feel that being kinda tired and feeling lazy is making my studies harder but I think I will manage.

Also the good news are that we keep learning new stuff every day and someday I really can be proud and work for living via doing web-page layouts and even whole pages.

Actually I m thinking starting even doing them now.  Still quite planning how to do the advertisements and payments etc. but I m still making progress in that area.

Hugs from Finland and into next time mates!
-Varjokani

Why we vampires?

Why when sun finally comes out from behind the clouds everyone in my class (including myself) feel like a vapmires and flee for it.

I really dont get people

Why does it happen that some times you first feel really happy about all nice things around you and then you just feel sad..?

And why do I get the feeling that some people don't know how to handle their sadness but blame others for it?

Okay I think we all do that to time to time but somehow I keep wondering why some of us do it more than rest of us? When they feel down they blame you for it.. Like "I feel horrible because of you." Okay its okay to say that aloud but when you do that and still go near that kinda person like you just would want to hurt yourself more I find myself wandering if everything is okay or not?

Maybe it just is that we people are not perfect, even how hard we try to be perfect and awesome we are not. And when some people  notice it they are cool, but some at the other hand get really mad to everyone else around them because those around them did not finish their "Dream world" and keep it standing for them.

..
Well it is hard to say but I really keep wandering it. :)

Useful links for css coding

-  Gradient maker
- Color picker
Flash file linking
-Shadowings

How to create custom mouse icon?

If you wish to create custom mouse icon to your web-page you can do it easily. Just add this peace of code to your css-file.


cursor: url('Your_cursors_name+link.cur'), default;



Link to online .cur convertor can be found here.



Also the code to make it be shown in your blog:

<style type='text/css'>body,a,a:hover{cursor:url(http://www.adress.com/YourCursorsName.cur),progress}</style>

normal day in media.

Just a normal day in media.. You just have fighting fish on your desk because someone wanted to buy it to film it in school studies and then to throw up and kill it in sewers and you just managed to talk them over to give it to you.. Yep. Just normal day in media. I have been trying to keep this fish alive for whole day starting 1pm and now its 5:30 pm and I still feel scared and sorry for this little fellow.

Html-harjoituksen ulkoasu_show_off

Tähän tulee päiväys

sims3 feat. books

Yes.. NEVER EVER play Sims3 after reading good novels if you don't want to end up epic Sim making + weirdo house ideas.

As seen here..

so if I cant sleep I m going to study..

Because I could not sleep I decided to practice and do small animation sketching..
Yes its not anything official. Just small sketching I m doing.
Like you can see its kinda rough and sketchy but I kinda enjoy learning how different animators do head movements etc.

why me?

I really feel annoyed now.. I mean I still have fever and I feel too tired to read anything (after finishing Lords of the Rings) and too full of energy to sleep. Other thing that is stopping me from sleeping is the heat and feeling like I m boiling alive. I really hate this annoying situation.

..

Waked up and installed Löve

Good morning.. I feel better now... I think. I still have cold shivers because of fever not calmed yet down. But the headache I had yesterday evening is gone. In fact I feel brilliant. One of my friends told me about a script language called LUA and now I feel like I must try it out right now. Yes I don't know anything about that language yet, it looks quite similiar than the codes that I have used before so I think I will manage quite nicely. Well we will see that later.

But however I still should think about coding languages because in my studies I have to choose one coding language to learn and become expert with. Well I haven't given that much of touch lately but I kinda feel like I should. After all it will be a move that will take effect on things I will do in my future.. Untill I decide to learn some other language also.  But then maybe I m over dramatizing things again?

Well we will see that later.

Now I m going to be really really stupid rabbit-brained kid and download LÖVE and see what happens.

Yes I have a bad habit of exploring things via "Lets see if I push this red button what happens.." And I really enjoy doing it when I m stuck in bed because of being il.

I will be writing here soon..

So beware!

Feverish nonsense of nothing interesting

I just feel like writing a story even I don't have any ideas what to tell. Also I feel numb and sensless like I was half dead. Maybe it is because I feel really tired... But somehow I still want to write a storyline of mice and rats and all kind of creatures fighting for their freedom somewhere far away from here in the era when humans were not concoured all the forests and land in world themselves.

I have imagine in my head about animals ruling all by themselves and taking care of their own busines. But maybe it is because of fever starting to rise again.. or maybe it is because I just read 'The secret of Nimh' but at the other hand I think it is because of both.

Forest, walleys and rivers they all kinda float before my eyes and I feel like I m there not here. I kinda can hear the wind in trees and feel the sun in my face. But not only I can feel the warmness of the sun, but I can feel something really evil lurking around.

That is the world I wanna write about but my head feels kinda empty of toughts. I don't have any ideas what would be the main plot. Lost sword or lost "hero" finding himself being hero feels too used for me.. Same thing goes with the "One ring to rule them all."

Maybe I m odd, because when I  m tired or ill I always want to write stories and do stuff.. Just when I was supposed to rest and take a nap I want to write or do something else instead.. Who cares. I bet no one reads this blog anyways. Well I don't care it either if anyone really reads this or not but I just feel like this writing kinda clears the mist inside my head.

Well my head is different for rest of us. After all I was supposed to be "A wild child".. I have read it takes only 2-3 years to human grow up his/hers first years without any contacts in other humankind to become one ... well whatever.

I just keep thinking what would happen if not and when not that and this but same time I feel like thinking of nothing, when the other side of my head keeps planning the plot for new novel. Well I quess it is normal for me when I m ill. I never tought of it before before now.

Maybe I should stop writing all this nonsense and shit?.. Why? Then I would feel really bored and I really don't feel like I want to go to bed just yet. And maybe if I keep writing my toughts down I manage to cathch up that Fever raged picture from my head and make a good book plot from it.

That brings to me to think that I never published any of my official texts anywhere.. Should I? Maybe not. I think they would be too boring so no one would not read them anyways. But anyways why do I think of what people do think anyways? Why anyone thinks of that?

It seems to be somekind of inner type in our nature to think what other think of us even it only makes us to think before we act, but somehow it also makes us to not act.. Because we somehow are scared of the world around us. Why? That is a question we all can ask from ourselfs and maybe we wake up a bit smarter at next morning.. Maybe not but maybe.

Drawing ideas?

私は私が退屈退屈退屈退屈だ..
私は次の描画にどのような新しいアイデアにたい..あなたは私のアイデアをお願いしますお願いします
すべてのアイデアは暖かく歓迎されています。

-Varjokani

Well I think I m saved..

I managed to download free version of Daz studio to give it as present to my boyfriend. I really hope he likes it.. ^^

But I m still ill and feel really odd and kinda over energized and I hope people will not hate me now. If they do hate me well they haven't said anything just yet.

Still I should be doing some school stuff soon. I still have to finish my audio book and couple other things. But also I feel kinda too tired to think about them now. Maybe I will think of them later and suffer for them later. At the moment I feel too feverish to think anything smart but also I feel I have too much energy to go to sleep now. Also how could I sleep when I promised to go to my boyfrend's birthday.

..
I should also think what code I m going to specialize. I have been thinking of Java Script, Phyton and Lua and I feel like having difficulties to choose between those. Maybe I will make out something maybe I will not. Who knows. After all we cant tell what happens untill it happens for sure.

Also that saying goes with all things with our lifes. We can't know anything until it happens. We might live our last minute now or tomorrow or maybe it will come after next thousand of years..
We will never know. Also  I think it is a good thing just for our own safeside to not know happenings of tomorrow.  Just think of it. If we would know what would happen to us next we would surely try stay "home and safe" doing nothing and then will would notice we would die knowing having really boring life behind of us.

Would that be nice? Maybe for some of us would say yes but I m not so sure about it. I somehow like surprises and interesting events in life.

But I will writing more soon
-Varjokani

should buy birthday present but ill

Sometimes things just can go so wrong.. I just should be buying something cool for my boyfriend but I got infection in my ears and I feel like I m going just lay here and keep thinking what should I do..

Maybe I figure out something.. Only problem is that its 20:12 and deadline for Birthday partys is tomorrow.. I so hate myself now.

Also I took my kittens neutried today. They are so "drunken" now. I just fear they hurt themselves. Now they are sleeping and I think its a good thing.

Hello again!

Yes its ages since I last posted here or even opened this page. I have been studied a lot. Now I know the basics of Java Script and am able to do lots of nice things. But what you do say if I start adding here some of coding tips? I mean would anyone be interested? .. I guess no but still I also enjoy fooling around with the Sims2. Nope I m not going to grow up for long time. Have fun and suffer for it!

And yes this blog is going to be updated a lot before I will start using it again. Hehehe. ^^'

Just small update to my blogs layout..

Yaya.. I have been busy lately with studies. But the good side is that I finally managed to add here my own banner to deviantArt.com. :-)
-Varjokani

New task to do

Hello again!
Sorry for break at writing. I was bit ill and felt too lazy to write anything. :/
Now I m start to be okay again from fever I got. Nasty fever and ilness always attacks me always when Winter makes its way to Finland.. Yes. I m such "un-perfect" Finnish. I like snow yes, but get easily cold.

But however I must keep studying and learning new things. Yesterday we got new task. We needs to make voice/audio document or fiction play and I m planning to gather some of my old palls to make audiobook of mine own.. Or at least we are going to read one chapter via 6 min time we have.

I will be doing all background sounds, foley art and stuff. This will become really interesting..

And really REDWAALLLL!! ... HEhhe. ;-)

Good morning people and animals. :-D

Yay! Good morning people!

Yes finally now I will have my first lessons about proper programming! Yay!
Because of that I want to share with you something


Yes it tells about "Wandering 'till the promised land of Rölli trolls"
Röllis are Finnish fantasy creatures. :-)

New sequense at studies

So were having one session of studies ending and the an other new one beginning. Now we will study about voice, video and programming. I hardly can't wait. I m so happy..
Okay I also m tired because I was troubles at getting a sleep last night.

But still I feel like I want to learn new things.. Just hoping I don't fall a sleep middle of class.

Also I needs to start planning my own movie project. This time it has to be video, not animation. I just hope I get some nice ideas.

Well all I can do is to believe myself or then be really dang lucky stupid rabbit as my friends call me. :-)
Lets see how I can manage.

Well I only have two options. Manage it great and do it so I can be at 3rd grade next year, or then fail and then suffer for it, so I think I just have to do it.

Lazy lazy me

Hi again!
I have been wasting whole of my weekend with sleeping and being really lazy. Well also I upraged my Habbo.com "Water to all pets project". Yes I made account Habbo.com (English version) one evening when I had lots of fever and I could not sleep but wanted something to do. Well now I have opened my room to all pets so their owners can bring them and so they don't need to pay water from store. They can use my water bowls free.

Yes I m sure many of you thinks "well what you got for that?" Well honestly I m so stupid and simple person that I just enjoy seeing other Habbos being happy when their pets have free water and pets can play also. It makes them happy. And when pets are happy their energy auto rises. That means you can level them up faster. :-)

Also I have playing Sims Medieval. Somehow I like it a lot. I got the main game as Birthday present from my boyfriend because he and I love all Medieval stuff.  IT was kinda shocking at first notice you could have sword fight and yo could actually kill your "enemy" (meaning the neighbor you don't like) by just fighting him. Also some Sims can steal and poison their neighbor. Its freaking scary. O__O


-Varjokani

Are you bugging GSM or wut?

Okay this is interesting. How can I have wip flipper in use at www.gosupermodel.fi even I m not vip.
This is kinda odd and I tough that I m sharing this pic with you guys. ;-)
Is this some update or what?

How I have this on use even I m not vip?!? O__O

An other view

Yay! Finally today I got to know that I have passed the Swedish exams and with good score!! I m so happy. Swedish language ever was my strong side. I think I m pretty  sure you can't imagine how happy I was when I heard that. I felt like I could just jump of joy and scream.

Well now I have again empty space between classes so all I can do is sit here and wait for next glass to begin. As I have time to write I could tell you about yesterday. We supposed to have whole day class at studio,  but for our class bad luck there was school photo-day and studio was in use whole day.  And all other class rooms were taken. All we could do is hang on and wait the time to go pass. And for mega bad we had photo-shooting work to do for teacher. At the beginning of the day we had free class at one class. Well we took all flash-stands and stuff and carried it to class. Then EVEN that class was taken for after 12 am ad then there were again all of us standing or sitting in hall and waiting. It was really annoying. And I again learned that my class is not mature enough to given EVEN pillows.. Because we play with them and act like 3 year old kids. Well it was fun.  :-D

Info..?

So I have new task to be done for Swedish lessons. I needs to tell about manga drawing in front of class  in SWEDISH. This is going to be interesting. Also I heard that I passed the exam. At the moment I don't know more but I m lucky to know I don't need to re-do whole thing. Also today I m taking Zorro and  Veli to vet for first time. I m sure they will be nervous for taking into car but I m glad the wet does not live so far from us. :-)

Phantom of The Opera Finnish

How many of you knew there is actually Finnish version of this song also?

Media mind?

Media has the power to control life.. How often do  you even think about it?
But how often its true?

Lets think about it. We have Facebook etc. Our friends like something there with the button "like" and they ask us also to like it, and then we "like" it and we don't care about anything. How there could be any harm with that?

But how many of us even thinks about it that way. Who can see what we  like? Facebook promises to keep our things private if we make our settings "private", but how then we see ads about things we are interested in. Same goes with Google Adds.. And then we have a good change to see what is happening. But do we want to see what social media is doing? Media knows everything about you. You can keep your eyes closed and live happily ever after, and I m pretty sure that is what you are going to do also.

-Varjokani

Worried..

Huh I managed to do my Swedish test.. And I think I made it okay, but today I m finally getting to know how it really went. My studies are going fine.. Too bad that I can't say same about one of my classmates. He keeps being "ill" and lazy and now he even has started lying to others. Like he said to me "Wait for me I will be going to buy some lemonade and will be back soon.."

That was before our last class. I promised to wait for him because he did not know they way to class.. Well he just decided to disappear. Well of curse I was worried of him because I had promised to walk him to the next class and I was sure something bad happened to him. I tried to call him because I had seen he had a phone with him. Still somehow he claimed next day that his phone was at home. -_-

That is why I feel sad about him  because he is nice fellow but I think he got some troubles. :/

I DID IT, didn't I...

Well now its done. I did make quite good work with my Sweden exam, or at least I felt like it was easy task to do. Well I cant be 100% sure before I see the exam. And its going to get lot of time before that happens, because our teacher must check them all at first.

And then the an other work this out thingie on my list now  is my work training place but I think I JUST HAVE TO FIGURE something out.

".. I did it didn't I..? But its over yet!"

  -Bigwig (Watership down)

 

Well kids are kids and I forget everything...

By that I  mean my kittens Zorro and Veli. Usually its Veli who starts playing and getting wild 11.0pm but yesterday evening it was Zorro. I put lights out and go to sleep and Zorro goes to jump on my studying desk on my laptop. When I put lights back I notice him sitting there with puppy-eyes looking at me.

And yes today was a task to bring some random item to take a photo for studies. Well I complitely forgot that. I was like "eeps.." But luckily I m not the only one who did not remember. I will have studies and exam about WORD typing programme.  Lets see if I manage to do it. I can remember all things yes,  but I kinda feel like I m going soon fall a sleep. Well lets hope for the best. I just don't wanna fail anything. ALSO I NEED to remember to read for my SWEDISH EXAM this evening. Because we will have large exam about it tomorrow morning. Yep. Everyone who know me I m such sleepyhead at the morning. And again I only can hope for the best.

-Varjokani

When Kittens wake u up..

When I start to write I can't stop it, but you know that already don't you?
Well at this morning I have been feeling quite well rested, and happy even I got awaken by my pet kittens. Yes I have forgot to write here so long time that you don't even know I have pet kittens.
My mom saw add on Shop window that there were kittens who needed home and now we have two small kittens called Zorro and Veli (meaning Brother in Finnish). They are kinda cute, and because they are so small they spend most of their day in my room sleeping and when I m going to sleep they want to play.  They wake up 6:00 am and go to sleep 11:00pm. Plus they seem to sleep when I m not home.

The good side of being cute kitten is that when you wake humans up and look cute no one can't get mad on you. Yep. Those little cats are lucky when I just cant be mad or angry for them.
But somehow they want to eat my Warrior cat-books. They are quite critics. ;-)

What to do when you can't stop writing..

Here again I had break and time to write and I feel like I should write about something, but somehow I also feel like got no idea what to write. Still I somehow madly feel like I need to write.
Like some part of me or the other me had something to say to people. Or then the other me has something to tell me.. Or then I m just FREAKING BORED AGAIN.

How ever I feel kinda happy about having change to write "junk" and spend some time writing what comes in my mind. I also just feel kinda happy doing it. Like I was doing some good acts but in fact I m just using time and being stupid. Or what can you call idiot like me who draws and writes with out any plan or idea what to do.  Just writes "sweet nothing" on paper or Internet and feels happy for the result.


Well I just m starting to build my own game. All ideas are welcome. :-)
Yep. That is what happens after you watch how some people do nice games and then you want to make one yourself. I just still m planning the plot. Also I have been re-reading The Jungle Book. Hahah. Well lets see happens in these days. I love ya all!

"..And Shere Khan was limb, and stupid tiger who had no more sense than run straight into wood cutters campfire.. Then he left horrible mourning.. He had missed and he did not care even if the whole that part of Jungle knew that..  It was man he was hunting tonight."

Varjokani 

ときに何が行う..？

オーケー。私はちょうど私はフィンランドの人々のどれもが興味を持っていません知っているので、この下に日本語を書く。私は"フィンランド·ちょっと人"じゃない主な理由。

しかし、私は私の同級生のいずれかで本当に怒ってどのように感じているか、これまで。彼はこのような素敵な人ですが、彼は考えているようだ"私はすでにこのひどく、私も上に行くことを試みるたいいけない失敗メートルので大丈夫。"理由なく自宅でたくさんのは、彼が好きです。彼は病気ではありません。彼はただ家である。彼は退屈しているので。そして、我々他の人が一生懸命勉強する。そして今、皆が彼に怒っているようだ。我々は彼を見たとき、我々は彼を迎えるとhelloと言うが、彼は"病気"誰もがそう思うようだ"なぜ、彼は再び家であるか、彼は邪悪な子供です。"私は悲しい思いがする。私は、彼が来て、勉強するように強制カントが、それは何も座っていないと行うことが痛い。たぶん私はただ座って凝視することを学ぶが、その硬いはずです。私は何をすべきか？私はちょうど彼が苦しんで見たいと思っていない..
または彼の苦しみを勉強しています。彼はこれで幸せになるようだが、彼はこれが彼があっても、学校や私は知らないから開始できますいっているかどうかはわから..

申し訳ありませんが私の悪い日本語のために。私は初心者メートル、はい、私はGoogleをたくさん使用しました。あなたはそれのために私を憎むことができます。その私が嫌いしても大丈夫。

私は痛みを伴う何を参照してください。誰かが自分の人生を殺したとき。

人生はとても短いです..？
一部の人はただ座って何もしない理由を私はまだそれを得ることはありません。また、私は彼らを助けるために何ができる何かがあることを願っています。私はただ座って凝視し、他は無駄に命を殺すときに座るのは嫌だ。しかし、私は何ができますか？私はそれらを強制することはできませんので、私はただ座って、彼らはアイデアと共に生きる彼らの変更を殺すように見守る必要がある "私は怠け者ノーメートル、私は後に動作します。"それは私が見て痛い方法ああ。私は悲しい思いがする。 ：（

Autumn coming up..?

I really don't know if there is any point of write blog no one will never read. Even in accident but because I m bored now I think I will just write it in any case. Today it should be warm weather but still it was chilly to me at dawn. Yep. It seems that the  summer finally is over and the season of leaves is coming. And just when I got  used to sun it is gone. Well it isn't snowing yet.

Most of people who never have seen snow think that it must be awesome and cool to see, but I who see snow every Winter think that its boring and COLD. I can tell you that it feels like you would be standing in giant freezer with no way out. Its not nice feeling. At cold wintery nights and evenings I usually go to my bed and make there my own "nest". Lots of warm pillows and warm night wear and maybe bottle of lemonade and a good book and  I m perfectly happy.. As well as lines don't get broken.. Sometimes at winter there is so much snow that trees just fall on power lines, or at least they lean on them enough to  make whole village where I live black and cold place. Usually it takes just about day to fix that but if damages are on large area we can be couple of days blocked from outside world.   That is the bad side of winter that seems to be not so much thought about when people think how "nice" snow is.

Okay luckily there is time to wait until winter comes because leaves are just starting to fall. But you can never know before that happens.

And how about Autumn now? Well its getting colder all the time, and suddenly there  is warm day and you feel like "why did I take all these clothes on?!" And when you leave them next day home you feel sorry for it. :-'D

Yep. Weather changes here a lot.

Small info of this year...

Yes I have been lazy with school. Also I have been troubled by not having enough time of my own. Like I have hardly time to study, and then the rest of my time goes when I try to reload myself for the next day. Yes I think most of people just think I m just shittyhead idiot who has no life but they are wrong. I m not idiot. I m just freaking bored of being "like everyone else". I just wanna be me, and this is how Varjokani became to be like it is today. Its 100% result of me being bored and wanted to do something random. Yes, I guess many hate me because of it because in in Finland you just have to be "normal" or then everyone will hate you. Or at least you have be like everyone else. Like part of large flood, and if you arent you are idiot, and stupid. I just guess I m too stubborn headed to act like people wish me to do. It just not me at all. Somehow I feel like if I try to act like everyone else I fail everyone, and I cant act anything else but to be stupid old me. 8-) I think everyone have right to be what they are, but somehow it seems like I dont have that right. But I dont care. I will be me till the very end of my days. And yes, I m being over dramatic but you just have to live with it. Just go away from this page... Oh and I almost forgot. I m planning new project but that is kinda a secret. You can see it later... If I ever get energy to post here when no one reads these posts anyway. :-) -Varjokani

Again.. being un-active everywhere else but DeviantArt.com and bed sleeping..
I m such  lazyhead at the summertime.

But there is something that I like to play middle of the night when my brains are turnded off. XD
dress up dolls

Hiiiya!

I m alive.. :D

Just been really busy busy with school. D:

At the moment easiest way to find me is to talk to me in DeviantArt. I try to be active there at least. :)

Yes.. busy as a bee and lazy as a lion.

Yes thats me. I have been really busy lately and I feel myself really lazy at the time to time. I feel like wanting to have a nap each second I just can. :D

Hiya again!

Hi again! I have been really busy (again). I have done 2 hours of work for my animation that is my schoolwork. Its was fun but made me tired. I drew more than 95 pictures and all I got was couple of seckonds of animation.. Its really hard work. I never tough it could be so hard work. But I´d say that it was worth of it. I will be posting my animation here after its done.
-Tanya

Hullo friends!

Yes, I have been quite busy lately, but I m still alive.

Heheheh. XD

Did I speak about things getting nasty?

.....Well now its really bad, for a weather. It totally rains. Luckily I can be here warm inside, and draw with drawing board.

I m planning also add Finnish language blog also.

When things go really really wrong..

Yes, I got depressed at this weekend, and that is why I got to sleep 12 pm and today I woke up 6:00 am, and now I have experiment about copyright law, and now I should be smart, and clever when I barely stay awake.

.....

But luckily no one else seems to have forgotten whole thing.. SO if I die, I m not only one.
But have nice day!

[EDIT:
"The teacher wants to move the day, because no one read, and that we still needs to learn something" 
 ] 
-Varjokani

I can bake! O_O

Yeees.. I baked my first cake ever.  I used whole day to do this, so do not kill me.

I used this as measure. I mean "There where ear of the lion ends mom. " xdd

Comments please!^^

-Varjokani

浜松のハレルヤコミュニティーチャーチで行われたワーシップの様子

Just wanted to share this beautiful song with you guys. Even you are Christian or not, you have to admit that this is beautiful.
I love their voice and how they really love to sing.  I think that this is what singing and worshiping is a all about; to love to do it, and have fun. But enjoy!
-Varjokani

About me in Youtube..

As many of you have seen I have an account at Youtube.com. I have planned to use it as a way to show my art, but I also want to use it for teaching things about art, and drawing. Yes, you have seen some of my art but only a small amount of it. So my question would be "What would you want to see in my account?" Send your answer here... And just to make it clear, it has to be something that I or you would dare to do before your parents so keep all bad ideas inside you okay?
Have nice day! :-)
-Varjokani

Hi again!

I m at a school at the moment. I have studied whole day Exel and feel really like I want to draw and hang out at DeviantArt, but I still enjoy studuying and learnig everything new about media.
I also m thinking to create new videos to Youtube;

This is just test try, and I know that I needs to fix that light.

Have nice week!

-Varjokani

Hiya!

I have been busy lately. Waking up 6:00 am is hard, and so I have spent whole day watching movies and resting.. But I think I needs to go to sleep now. I just wanted to do a quick post here.  I love ya!

And just when I wished to wake up early..

And go to bed 9:00 pm. Surely then I just needs to get ache on my stomach. I m just so mad at myself. I just wished to wake up early and then I could not get a sleep because of that horrible pain. I m just so out of luck. >_<'  When did I have  a good luck? o.O  But well, I m still alive (for your bad) and I m still writing these. Yes, I needs to go school tomorrow and after all the pain I had because of my rabbit-hater teacher I m bit scared, but who would not?  Lets just hope and pray that everything will turn out good and I will live happily after all till I die with my buckhare (means=boyfriend).  Lets just hope that I havent gotten any school fobia.
-Varjokani

Good bye my beloved Summer holiday...

Yes, it seems like I just yesterday started my Summer and now it seems to fade away. I will soon start studying as media-assistant, so it means I can´t hang out at DeviantArt so much as I used to. I m going to  miss everyone. Well luckily this is one step ahead to my dream job so I think I can take this. I just can´t wait to start studying.. but at same time I feel little nervous because I will not know anyone and they all are going to be strangers but I think I can manage that also.  But I will be posting more about my studies as I know more of them. All I now know is that I needs to wake up really early  (6:00) or something if I wish to be there in time at school. Lets just hope that I stay awake.  I m not so keen on falling as sleep at first schoolday of mine. That would be horrible, wouldnt it be.
But wille be writing more soon!
- Yours Varjokani

Asiaa Irja Askolalle!

(( Varjokani production on ollut ongelmissa internetyhteyden kanssa joten anteeksi viivytys))
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Voisiko joku ystävällisesti viedä nämä terveiset Askolalle? Olisin hyvin suuren kiitoksen velassa.


Itse kristittynä ja omasta mielestäni erittäin suvaitsevana henkilönä ihmettelen eräitä asioita Suomen nykyisessä kirkossa. Kristillisyys on perinteinen uskontomme, ja sitä pitäisi vaalia. Ei tietenkään niin että ketään pakotettaisiin siihen . Ateistit ja muslimit saavat vapaasti olla sitä mitä haluavat.

Jostain kumman syystä tämä ns. "vapaa lupa ajatella omilla aivoillaan" ei koskekaan meitä kaikkia. Homoseksuaaleja, ja ateisteja se kyllä koskee, mutta jostain kumman syystä ex-homoseksuaalit ja kristityt jotka uskovat Raamattuun eivät saa olla omaa mieltään?  Saanko kysyä missä vika?



Otetaampas esimerkiksi Gay parade- paraati, jossa homoseksuaaliset ihmiset marssivat tasa-arvon puolesta ja osoittavat omaa mieltään. Tämä on Suomessa täysin sallittua, ja mielestäni saakin olla, mutta kas kummaa heti kun joku ilmoittaakin olevansa ex-homo niin heti ollaan syyttämässä kyseistä henkilöä toisten oman mielipiteen loukkaamisesta, ja masentamisesta ym. Mikseivät muka ex-homot saisi olla omaa mieltään? JA sitten vielä väitetään että kyseistä henkilöä haastatellut Nuotta olisi rasistinen. Kuka tässä ei anna kenen olla oma itsensä. Kukaan ei ole kieltänyt etteivätkö homoseksuaalit saisi olla omaa mieltään mutta nähtävästi tämä ei edelleenkään koske ex-homoja, vaan nämä ovat heti loukkaavia itsekeskeisiä ja hyökkääviä rasisteja jotka näkevät vain oman itsensä. Miten minusta tuntuu että tuo väite pätee enemmän johonkuhun toiseen ihmisryhmään joka näyttäisi sietävän vain oman mielipiteensä, ja muut (siis ne pskapäät ja erimieltä olevat) ovat rasisteja. (?)

Toinen asia on se että kas kummaa kun muslimit saisivat kyllä tulla kirkkoon kertomaan omaa mielipidettään mutta kristiytyt yhteisöt eivät. Miksi tämä minusta vaikuttaa siltä että että täällä tosiasiassa syrjitään uskovia kristittyjä ja nämä syyttäjät väittävät olevansa törkeän rasismin uhreja!!!

Tietenkin tuomitsen myös muslimeija ja homoseksuaalisia henkilöitä koskevan todellisen rasismin. He ovat yhtä arvokkaita kuin mekin. Kuitenkin mielestäni myöskin kristittyjen pitäisi antaa olla omaa mieltään kun kaikki muutkin saavat niin toimia.

-Varjokani

OMA MIELIPIDE SALLITUKSI KAIKILLE!!